Renesmee's Story (A Twilight Fan Fiction) *BEING EDITED*

Chapter 8- Part 5

I hear someone outside and listen for a little while and distinguish that there are a couple of people walking this way. I stand up and look out my bedroom window, seeing mum and in the distance, taking their time to get here. Oh no, I didn't think of that. If he did do this, I am in for a long discussion with both of my parents. Fun. When I realise it is only mum and dad -no one else with them- I sit down on my bed, disappointed that I cannot sleep as most people -when they don't want to talk to someone- fake that they are sleeping. My parents will know I'm awake so that tactic is useless to me. I lean my head against my wall and when I hear someone, mum, close-by I open the novel sitting on my bedside table. When she opens the door I fake that all my attention is in reading this book.

"I'm surprised to see you stayed here."

"You thought I'd run away?" I snap at her. She stands in the middle of my doorway, not saying a word. I sigh. I shouldn't take it out on her. I'm annoyed that they yelled at me but it is my fault, I get so caught up in the moment I don't think of the effects of what I am doing. The problem is, right now, it is easier to be mad at her so she leaves thanopen upabout everything. Just not tonight, maybe tomorrow. When she stays quiet, with no obvious intention of leaving,I start to actually read the book as I flipped to the page I was up to.

"So, you didn't leave this house? At all?" she asks, already knowing that I would have but wanting to see what I say.

"Nope," I lie. I change the page and keep reading.

"Nes, what is this about? What's wrong?"

"Nothing is wrong." She raises her left eyebrow, showing that she knows I am hiding something. This infuriates me even more as I don't want to talk and know that she will not leave until I do. "Leave me alone, I don't want to talk to you," I add, hoping she will get the hint. I stay focused on my book but can see the pain on her face at what I said. Expressions aren't easy to recognise in vampires but when you are one yourself it is quite easy.

"What has gotten into you? You are not the child I knew," she states.

This is ridiculous. When you want to be left alone why is it that everyone wants to talk to you? I cannot be bothered with this right now. I fold down the corner of the page I was reading and close my book. I stand up from my bed and face mum. If she won't leave me alone I will get out of this house. I barge past her.

"Where are you going?" she asks.

"If you won't leave me alone I'll leave. I won't go far, you'll be able to see me," I tell her before walking out the front door. I go far enough where I know he won't able to over hear anything. When I think I am far enough, I climb into a tree and sit on one of the highest branches. I rest my back against the trunk of the tree. He must not have rang them, he must have assumed they were hunting so he must not have bothered as he knows their phones are switched off.

I cross my legs and drop my head into my hands. What am I going to do now? About the Volturi, about Jake, everything. This is such a mess, I don't even want a party anymore. What's the point of a party when Jake won't even be there and for other people's safety they won't be there either? I need to find someone who knows, who has gone through it, someone who can help me. Even before I changed Jasper use to help me a bit with controlling my moods but these are more occuring. I use to be able to switch off and ignore it but now it feels as if the slightest thing sets me off. Of course you get angry when someone is arguing with you but I felt as if I was going to hurt one of them -mum or dad. Mum has only been a vampire for two years so she is still quite strong but the others aren't. Even if they were strong enough that if I did attack it wouldn't affect them I would still be upset if I tried.

I wonder where Jake is now. Did he go back home? Or is he also out in the woods somewhere? This is such a mess. My whole body is wanting to run, to find him but I can't. If I argued with him I could hurt him, and if I did I wouldn't be able to live with myself. Maybe I'm not giving him enough credit. He is a wolf, after all. But I don't know how strong I am, I cannot risk it.

I realise the sun is beginning to rise and know I have to go home now but I don't want to. I drop down to one of the lowest branches -about three to four metres above the ground- and stay put. Mum will know where I am and if not when dad gets close enough he will be able to sense me. I hear footsteps and can tell only one of them have came to find me.

"Renesmee?" I hear my mother call out. I don't reply. She must be able to smell Jake on me or something because she finds me too soon. She climbs up to the branch I am sitting on and sits beside me. She stays quiet, wanting me to begin. I can tell she is facing me but I remain looking straight ahead for a little while longer, not knowing where to start. We were always so close, nothing has really changed, I just have to open up to her, but about how much? I decide to finally face her and when I do I can tell that she is studying me, which makes me turn away.

"I'm so sorry about last night, and all the other times I have snapped at you and dad," I begin, not knowing how else to start. "I just- don't know. I felt so . . . angry, but don't know why. Of course I was annoyed because you and dad were yelling at me but that wasn't it. I don't know what it was. I know it sounds stupid but I cannot explain." I decide to finally face her and her face is covered with concern. "What is happening to me?" I murmur. Mum wraps an arm around my neck and I rest my head on her shoulder.

"It's new to us too, I just wish I knew how I could help. Lets go home, we will talk there."

"Dad is still angry, isn't he?"

"I will talk to him, OK?" I nod. We both jump down from the tree and head back home.