I was drowning in my own tears that night as I saw him drive away. I honestly couldnt believe I did that, wow did I fuck shit up real bad this time. He would never forgive me. I picked up my phone and dialed his number for the fifth time but once again I got sent directly to voice mail.
'"Patrick, please pick up the phone im sorry i really am please i just want to explain myself, I love you." I hung up the phone and threw it across the room. How could i have been so stupid? i let my feelings get the best of me and now i cant take back my actions. All i can do is lay here and wait for a reply and hopefully a second chance.
The door bell rang and i ran as fast as i possibly could, maybe it was Patrick?
" Hey Hugh, you think you can have your fun with me and just kick me out of your house like a fucking dog!" Fuck.
"My boyfriend walked in on us and you want to argue with me are you high? just leave, John!!" I raised my voice i was nearly screaming at him, ive never done that before.
He look at me for awhile before speaking again, "Do you think im not as upset as you are that he walked in, Patrick is my best friend and he has been for years, but all of this is your fucking fault." He walked away before i could say anything.
I love Patrick i really do, i love the way he sleeps next to me and the way he rolls his eyes at me when i tell a stupid joke. I love the way he makes me feel important and loved. I love every bit of him, but he doesn't now that and now he probably hates me. I fucked his best friend, and sadly that is a crime that can never be forgiven.
I locked up downstairs and laid down on the couch, maybe i could get some sleep.
I awoke to the sound of my phone going off who could possibly be calling at this hour, "Hello, this is Saider's Hospital calling, is this Hugh whom im speaking to?"
"Yeah.....why are you calling?"
There was a long pause before she continued, "You are listed as the primary contact on Patrick's files, and im so sorry but he was in a car accident and he has some serious injuries."
I dropped the phone, grabbed my keys and ran out of the house, this was all my fault.
