Before I start I just want to say
This is my first book so don't judge me, if you don't like my story get a life and get over it.
This story is based on a real true event.
Sorry about the spelling as well guys :)
Look at me now, look what you have done, I don't deserve this let alone does anyone deserves to be here where I am today, bulling I don't get it, people think they are so tough that they think to them selves my life's perfect and this persons life is better off gone, you all don't get it, bulling leads to suicide and self harm I don't understand why someone would want to be in the place where every day the thoughts of that person you bullied committed suicide haunts you for the rest of your life, depression always is a sign of bulling.
I will admit I was a victim, I got bullied everyday in primary and in high school, people think just because someone doesn't look like everyone else that they need to bully them.
I even got bashed a few times, I suffered from depression a few times and everyday after school I would run into my bedroom lock the door and cry my self to sleep.
Someone even told me to go jump off a bridge because everyone's life would be better off without me being alive, I did self harm once or even twice I can say it wasn't really good, I tried starving my self to make me die I would tell my parents I hated my self and I wanted to die then and there.
One day at school in grade 7 people called me a slut, whore, ugly rat, buck toothed beaver you should say they called me everything under the sun anyway, one day it went to far someone came up to me when I was at my locker they came up pushed me in to my locker and punched me while calling me a dirty slut, I got up ran into the girls toilet bowling my eyes out looked into the mirror while my make up running I hate myself I shouldn't be here, I started punching my self in the head and grabbed my scissors one cut two cuts up to about 10, looked at my self again said hey you yeah you, your an ugly slut go die and i ran to the Corner still crying slowly going down the wall to sit down, there was blood all over the ground I heard someone coming I was trying to get up to hide myself but I couldn't get up I was in to much pain, she ran up to me while my head was in my arms, she said hey Claire what have you done the only thing I could say was kill my I hate myself she said Claire show me your arm I showed her and she started crying saying Claire stop stop your going to be okay, I got up with her and washed my arm, while I put my sleeve down she walked me out to go to my locker to get my books for my next class by that point I was sick as I feel on the ground she said Claire get up but I didn't reply she yelled for help then one of my other friends ran up put my head on his legs and said Claire wake up I wouldn't so I had to go home I was laying in bed and I woke up I ran outside to my friends house and gave him the biggest hug and said thank you for everything I still felt a little sick so he told me to lay down on the couch in his room so I did.
I said I love you, your the only guy that cares about me and hasn't called me a slut. He offered me a drink of water and I wouldn't take it he yelled at me and grabbed my arm he had it with me, trying to be my friend but as I found out when I was laying on his couch he was only one of them so called fake friends he punched me and slapped me around the face, I started bowling my eyes out and got up screaming at him and ran out of his house I went to the closest park and hid under a tree I felt really sick so I tried to get up, but then again I couldn't I put one hand on the tree and the other on my stomach, I heard someone say my name so I looked up it was a group of girls, she ran up to me punched me in the face and throw me to the ground she saw my arm and said oh look what you have done I feel sorry for you not and punched me once again after about 25 minutes they left and I was on the ground in a ball bowling my eyes out, I grabbed my phone out and ran my mum I told her where I was and that I need help, she found me and took me home.
I ran into my bathroom got the razor and I started to cut once again, I was still crying my eyes out.
I sat on my bed and looked at Facebook there was so many messages saying that when they get me they are going to bash me until I die, they also said Claire you are a waste of time go and die we all hate you, Claire go stab yourself in the gut before I do it for you because you are nothing but an ugly slut that doesn't even deserve to be alive, I throw my phone on the ground and my stomach went down like it had just been punched really hard, I stayed in my bedroom and never went back to school until the 3 week of school finishing, I had an alright day until after school there was three girls and about two boys at my school looking for me to bash me up, I tried to hide and I even ran away I was crying in front of everyone, I finally found a way out of the school grounds and I never ever went back to that school, I soon moved states and found a school I belonged at but it has started again I am now starting to get bullied, I shouldn't be in the place of a victim but I guess that's just how I was born, to always have someone behind me telling me how worthless I am.
This is the first chapter, I will write more soon I promise :)
