I sit on the side of my bed with my feet hanging, only touching the carpet with the tip of my toes, looking up at my roof in my very dimly lit room, the only light coming through the window from the street lights outside, it's now 4 in the morning.
I can't stop thinking about how this is going to absolutely crush my family and friends. A tear starts to roll down my pale skin.
I finally pick up the courage to get up and walk over to my desk. I take a seat, on my black leather computer chair. I reach down to my desk draw and slide it open, grabbing a pen and paper. I decide to open my phone and check if I have anything from anyone and I did, just not the things I wanted, "kill yourself you fat pig" "no one likes you" nothing new. Well I guess they are about to get what the want.
Still sitting at my desk, I turn my phone off for the last time, being glad, I don't have to hear from anyone anymore.
Back to my paper.
Dear mum, dad and my little brother
I'm sorry I couldn't be stronger for you all. Do not blame yourself for my actions, none of you are the reason for this so please don't be sad. I love you all so much and don't think this is the last goodbye because I will see you all when your time comes also x
I clean my room so no one has to deal with any of this when I'm gone. I put my note on my pillow so it's noticeable, and just like that I sneak out the front door trying so hard not to wake anyone.
Finally out the door I take a sigh of relief.
I start walking in the very quiet and dark street, it felt like I was the only girl left on earth. I keep walking not to any particular spot, just to somewhere I though might be suitable.
I finally come across a cliff, high above the crashing waves on the rocks below, the only light coming from the moon. I start walking close to the edge of the cliff, having to jump a poorly made fence trying to keep people away for the exact reason I'm here. I reach the edge of the cliff and take a seat with my legs dangling off the edge. I take a deep breath in of the salty air thinking how much I always loved the smell of the ocean.
