Amnesia >> M.C

IV

~ Infinity's POV~

Once we were at the venue it was the usual routine; Practice everything first, make sure everything works, head to your dressing areas and get yourselves ready, and then finally wait to be called to the stage. I'm just sitting on a black leather couch in my little dressing area while Ashley was having the guy's hair and makeup girl Lou work on her hair a bit. Of course when it came to her appearance, Ashley wanted to look absolutely perfect, she wanted to make sure that she looked the best that she could, then there's me, who barely ever wears makeup and the most elaborate hairstyle I'll ever do for my hair is put it into a simple side braid.

"Are you sure you don't want me to do anything to your hair Infinity?" Lou asked me as she finished getting Ashley's hair all curled and wavy. I shook my head as I looked over at her, flashing a small smile of reassurance. "Thanks for the offer Lou, but I'm sure." I said. She nodded her head as she returned my smile and put the finishing touches onto Ashley's hair, which was just spraying it with hair spray, before leaving the room. Ashley turned to look at me and gave me a small questioning look. "Are you okay? You seem a little.. out of it." She told me, a small look of worry showing on her face. To be honest, I wasn't okay, I was kind of dying a little bit on the inside, but no one needs to no that. I continued to keep the smile on my face, but I painted it to resemble on of happiness. "What are you talking about Ashy? I'm perfectly fine." I said. She looked at me questioningly, I could tell that she was skeptical, but then she just sighed as she nodded her head a bit. "Okay Infinity, what ever you say." She said, finally dropping the conversation.

I sighed a bit to myself as I leaned back into the leather couch, running my hand through my hair, which even though it was originally blond, I have dyed it yet again and now it's this pretty pastel blue color. I glanced over at the clock, seeing that the time was 8:25 and the concert starts at 8:30. "Infinity, Ashley, five minutes till show time!" A person shout at us through the door and Ashley quickly responded with an "Okay! We're coming!" and grabbed my hand and pulled me off of the couch and started dragging me around backstage, until we met up with all of the guys. As usual, they looked like their usual "punk-rock" selves, especially Mikey since he's only wearing black tank-top, these pants that are all black on one side while the other was stripped, and a pair of combat boots. I quickly looked down at my feet, trying to keep myself from staring at him, but yet I really cant help myself... I mean, I do still love him after all, I never stopped... but he probably moved on.

As we all waited backstage, we started making conversation, but it was kind of hard to hear each other over the fans singing 'Teenage Dirt Bag' and screaming for the lads to come out. "Alright, you're all ready to go on stage." One of the stage people said as the lights went all dark on in the venue, except for back stage and we all made our way onto the stage, and before we knew it the instrumental for 'Don't Stop' start playing. Even though 5SOS did write this song, everyone thought it would be nice if we all did like a little duet for this song, so that was exactly what we were doing. I stood by my mic, gripping it with both my hands and kind of had my head turned to the side, kind of Luke does whenever he sings, and sang happily when I was supposed to and danced around a bit like the idiot we all know I am

~ Michal's POV ~

I gripped my black guitar with one hand on the neck, my fingers movingly skillfully across it while my other hand held a white guitar pick and strummed at the strings of the guitar happily while me and Calum did our usual routine of acting silly and dancing around the stage with each song we played. By the end of the night, we were all sweaty like usual, and now it was time to bust out the acoustic guitars and Ashton's drumming box and play some of our slower acoustic songs. "Alright guys so... We actually have a new song we want to play for all of you." Luke said with a small smile as we all sat in our stools, well besides Ash who was on his drumming box, and Haley and Ash who were backstage since they were done their performance, and I'm not going to lie, they were a lot better than I remembered the two of them to be.

"Awe yes, that new song that I wrote." I said with a small cheeky grin as I looked over to Luke while all of the fans in the crowd were roaring and cheering and applauding happily. "So, Michael, how did you come up with this song? Hmm?" Calum asked me as he nudged me with his elbow a bit and I just rolled my eyes playfully at him. "You already know Calum, it's about you." I said jokingly, but yet even though I was joking the applauds and the cheers from the crowd got louder, and I could even hear some fans yelling "Malum" to us. "No, but really, I wrote this song from some of my past experiences and some of my current thoughts and feelings for that situation. What is that situation you may be asking? Well... I'm not gonna tell you/" I said and stuck my tongue out playfully. "This song is called Amnesia." I said finally and started playing my acoustic guitar while Calum started singing. I was kind of surprised that we were all able to get this song down and ready to be performed right now, considering I did write the song today, but I wouldn't want to have it either way.

I glanced over in the crowds direction and saw everyone waving their arms in the air, either holding an electronic in their hands, or one of those glow sticks that you can buy before the concert. No one was cheering or applauding, all you could hear was the music we were making and our voices as we sang, and it was absolutely beautiful, but yet I started to feel myself tear up a bit as old memories of me and Infinity together started floating into my head again. 'No, don't start crying, stop. You're strong than that' I thought to myself, but even though I was thinking in such a manner a small stray tear did manage to fall from my eye and roll down my cheek. Fuck me and all these stupid memories and conflicting emotions, I thought to myself more as I kept my gaze down and on my guitar and tried to make it so my green hair was covering my eyes, since I didn't want anyone to see the tears that were showing in my eyes.

~ Infinity's POV~

Me and Ash continued to stand backstage, a water bottle was in my hand and I was chugging it down thirstily. Surprisingly the concert has been going pretty great, and I though me and Ash performed pretty well with the guys, well me and Michal didn't start fighting and arguing or anything, which is a plus, but yet he did send me some 'dirty looks' I guess you could say every now and again, but whatever, it's not like it's that big of a deal. I leaned up against the wall as I watched them from my position backstage, hearing the fans continue to roar and clap, until they started playing their new acoustic song. I couldn't help but to go silent and awe struck as I heard them play- They were the only things I could hear!

I looked over towards Michael and I watched as he played on stage, his fading green hair covered his bright green eyes that seemed to be filled with tears as he strummed at the acoustic guitar. All the fans in the crowd were waving their phones or tablets, or whatever electronic they brought with them and were waving them in the air to the song. Everyone was quiet and all you could hear were the voices of the boys, but to me Michael's stood out the most since his seemed to be filled with the most emotion, the most pain, the most sorrow... the most heart break. "Cause I'm not fine at all....No I'm really not fine at all." Luke sang and by then the tears were springing free from my eyes. Sometimes, ever since what happened to me and Michael... I wish that I could wake up with amnesia.