How her life changed

She sits in the back of her dads car staring out the window with a headphone in each ear. She reflects on how much her life has changed for good and for bad. She remembers the good memories and the bad memories. She remembers her friends. She remembers her family. She thinks about the many times she's laughed and the many times she's cried. She looks back on how many tears she's shed and the blood that she's bled. She think about all the things she's done good and all the things she's done bad. She remembers her mistakes and makes sure she punishes herself for it. Her family don't even know she's secretly dying inside.