My YouTube Life [ON HOLD]

14 (P1): Flashback

My mom had gone out to eat with her girlfriends. She hasn't really gotten out of the house since dad died. She usually goes to work at exactly 8:30 am, and returns home straight after. No parties, and definitely not going out to eat with her friends. Just trying to be there for me I guess.

A sweet kiss. That's all it was. Sweet. Nothing more and nothing less.

After our 1 year anniversary Levi finally made the move. I mean, we've kissed before, but not like this. He was on top of me, squishing me against the leather seating of my living room couch. He has his lips on mine, his tongue asking for entrance. I let him. He flips us over, so now I'm on top. I kiss him passionatly again. He sits up, and I wrap my legs around waist. He lifts up my shirt. I lift off his. He tries taking off my pants.

I push him off of me.

"Lev. No," I say, "we aren't going that far."

"Come on T. It'll be the best thing you've ever experienced," he replies cockily.

"No Levi! I'm only 17. That makes me underage," I say, remember all the Law and Order: SVU I've watched.

"Not if it's consetual," he taunts.

Why did I have to get him into that series.

He comes back over to me, and tries taking off my pants again.

"Levi! I said no!" I scream pushing him off me.

"Fine, but think about it," Levi says.

He grabs his stuff and hurries out the door to his car. I run to the door, but when I open it he's already gone.

Why did he leave so quickly? He seriously just asked to have sex?

I slip my tee shirt back on and sit down on the couch that we just made out on. I turn on the tv, and go straight to Netflix.

"You have a new notificaton."

That's not my text tone.

I look to the coffee table in front of me. Levi's phone is there laying upside down. I pick it up.

Kik-

@notawhitegirl69

Hi baby ; ) 2morows our 10 month ann. Lets celebrate. If you know what i mean. 69 oxxxxo

This could not be real. He seriously just tried to have sex with me! Now he has this 'other girl' who actually wants to 'do it' with him!

Knock

Knock

"Hey. I'm sorry I tried forcing sex on you. I wasn't trying to make you feel uncomfortable, I thought you and I were ready," Levi said hugging me.

Is he serious?!

"Maybe you should try forcing sex on her," I say shoving his phone in his face.

"What! I don't even know this chick?" he says studying the screen.

"She said it was your '10 month anniversery'! Why would she say that is it wasn't true?" I say.

"I don't know!" he says, "But I don't know her! I promise!"

"Just leave Levi!" I yell, "Isn't that what you do! Leave-i!"

I slam the door shut and lock it. I also close the blinds beside the door. Tears escape my eyes, and I slide my back against the door. I put my face in my knees and wrap my arms around my legs. While I'm in this position, I hear Levi slam his car door and back out of my driveway.

I didn't only ruin my relationship, I just said the stupidest pun ever.

That only makes me cry harder.

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"Tara honey?" Mom asks, "Open the door."

I open my eyes.

I must have fallen asleep at the door.

I scoot out of the way and unlock the door. Mom walks in. She looks down at me, and notices I've been crying.

"What happened? I leave for 5 hours, and come home to find my daughter crying herself to sleep in front of the door," she says trying to lighten the atmosphere in the room.

She's always been like that. Lightening everyone's spirits.

"I don't want to talk about it," I say getting up and running to my bedroom.

I get on my bed and curl up in a ball. I'm dressed in the clothes I was wearing before, but I'm to depressed to even move out of the position I've landed myself in. All I do is sit there crying.

Untill my alarm clock goes off at 7:00 am.

Author's Note:

This song by Panic! At The Disco is just to describe how Tara is feeling when she finds out Logan is cheating on her.

I advise you listen to it. It's a great song! ;)