Because You Loved Me-A Kaira FF

I haven't let him go yet

  Right now I am in my kitchen staring at the swirls i created in the mug of coffee as i stood there stirring it relentlessly , my mind and my body totally disconnected. All of these are the consequences of what i saw on tv. He still has that effect on me , able to leave me dumbstruck wherever he is. And poor me always falling a victim for that. I think because I was staring too long into the swirls in the cup, that the vortex of my mind sucked me in and transported me back to the past, to yet another memory of us; yet another piece of him.
           I was back in our house in Delhi,a memory that still looks afresh as if it had happened just yesterday.

I had woken up quite early today, just couldn't get much sleep as my mind was quite active to remain shutdown. So i thought i could get some coffee inside my system and do yoga and get started off with the day. Kartik was still fast asleep and if he had awaken he wouldn't have let me out of the bed. Instead he would have pulled me in tight in his arms and cuddled with me until it was time for work. As i descended down the stairs, i noticed the house was quiet and i am guessing everyone is still fast asleep. Good for me!!!!

    After i had finished getting my coffee done i turned to go to the garden and enjoy my morning with nature. Just before i could do so a pair of  strong arms encircled me from behind. So he had awaken and has soundlessly crept up behind me to surprise me like this. I was instantaneously pulled back into his rock hard chest and there, i was in my safe haven.

    "Good morning Sherni" he whispered huskily in his sleepy voice and right then and there he had me in his hold. Who could not fall for that. But i decided to act unaffected. "Did the sun rise in the west today because i don't see this Mendak getting up so early" I said smiling and immediately he turned me around so that now i was facing him and it was becoming even more difficult to keep up my game. He pulled me more closer and tightly held me     " No Sherni , Actually there was a stupid call that was a wrong number in the first place that had awaken me from my sleep and on top of that i couldn't find you next to me so i thought what's the purpose of sleeping now that even Naira is not next to me. Thus i came down searching for you" he said smiling sheepishly. That's all. You are done for Naira. When he says words like these now and then it makes me realise how lucky i must be have to be blessed with this Mendak. " Ohhhh...how sweet of you!! So do you want a cup pf coffee , my pyaara sa pati " . He shook his head and taking that as a no i said, " Alright then come along with me to the garden atleast you can enjoy the beautiful morning once in your lifetime " and started walking away. That's when he pulled me back again close to him and said" Sherni i said i didn't want another cup of coffee. That doesn't mean I don't want coffee at all. I have my own means of drinking coffee" saying so he slyly eyed my lips. Understanding where he was getting to I said "Besharam Mr. Goenka all you can think of  is romance, woh bhi itne suba suba!!!"
"Mrs.Goenka,Romance is romance and it does not have any time or place. Just feel the love"he replied. I started moving back away from him and he closed up upon me and then i couldn't go anymore as i had come near the kitchen counter. Knowing this when i tried to run out of his grasp , he grabbed me by the hip and placed me on top of the counter. He placed his hands on either side of me on the counter imprisoning me in his hold. Then he started coming close and carressed my face. He then moved away the strands of hair on my face and tucked them behind my ear. Even his simplest of touches where sending shockwaves throughout my body. Be it a year or even a decade,my body responds to him the same way as if it is the first time. He kissed my forehead ever so lovingly and then slightly pecked my nose, then my eyes. Now his mouth was lingering soo close to mine and i was anticipating his kiss. And that's when he decided to tease me. While i had drunk my first sip of coffee,i had given myself a mustache out of the froth. He went for it first,slowly kissing above my lips meanwhile his hand were drawing circles on my waist driving me haywire. My body felt as if it had been ignited, his every touch was like a stroke of fire. I couldn't bear it anylonger and said breathlessly" Mendak bahut himmat aagaya tumko..soo daring to keep teasing Sherni like this" for which he replied " Have some patience Sherni ,after all as far i remember you weren't in the mood for any romance woh bhi itni suba suba" he said laughing imitating what i said earlier. I couldn't control myself anymore as his each and every touch, every carress was becoming unbearable. Before i could start speaking again he slammed his lips onto mine. A kiss that had started slowly was now turning into a need of hunger and when we came up for breath he said" That's how i have my morning cup of coffee" and i couldn't help but blush. He has a way with his words. And then his lips were again approaching mine....

    Then suddenly i was shook back into the reality by the blaring sound of my doorbell ringing. See that's what happens when i think about him even for a second,i end up getting lost in my memories and get detached from the real world. He may have abandoned me but my heart refuses to let go of him howmuchever i try to. I take a few seconds to collect myself because i didn't want to look like a lunatic to the person who was at the door. Luckily it was none other than Payal. " Hey sweetie!!!just thought I'd drop in for a few minutes. Haven't had time to speak with you for  a whole week. So i came in here as soon as i got off from work. This week's been quite hectic what with the fashion week coming i feel like my head is on a rollercoaster and....Naira!! naira!! Are you even listening??!?" Shit not again Naira . You can't keep drifting off like this. Payal must have guessed something must be wrong because she asked me if everything was all right. Then i told her" He is coming back Payal". A bit confused she asked"Who is coming back?? Whom do...Oh do you mean Kartik??" My silence told her the answer. " So what Naira?? If he is coming back that  doesn't mean you're going to run into him. There are so many people in Mumbai and the chance s of running into him is very very less.Even if you run into him why should you be afraid. He was the one who abandoned you , he must be feeling guilty" Payal reassured me. She doesn't know what a mess i turn into just thinking about him. God knows what will happen if i run into him.. I might behave like a madwoman throwing things at him or just go hug him tight. See..i clearly don't know what i will do. But as she said, the chances of me running into him is quite less and if i am right he will stay in Mumbai only for a few days and will go back to Delhi were the rest of our family resides. So the chances are Nil Naira. Don't worry i reassured myself. Little did i know at the moment that fate was playing its own little game and even that Nil chance will be turning out true.