Chapter 37
George POV
We were currently sitting on the couch in our tour bus, The boys playing fifa and I was texting Jazz. I was so happy that we only had to sit in this annoying bus for about two and a half hours until our first stop. I honestly have no idea how I will survive the whole tour on this bus.
Our first stop was in Bristol, my home town, where we would be dropped of at the arena to get ready and tonight would be our first show. I was happy that I would see my family again even if I had just seen them yesterday. After spending a lot of time away from them it's nice to see them a little more. Something I was also very excited about was meeting the fans and of course preforming. But no matter how excited I was, I still couldn't enjoy this fully. Honestly I felt bad for leaving Jazz alone, I know she still had her friends and family with her but I meant alone after we recently moved in together. I wanted to be there for her when she finished her first day of college and hear her telling about the teachers she hated, the subjects she detested and the people she met. I wanted to be there when she was on her period and wanted to cuddle on the couch while watching a sappy romance but unfortunately, I couldn't.
"So how are you and Jazmyn?" Josh asked and I looked confused. "Eh great, I guess?" I said and he shook his head in response. "I assume you haven't told her, then?" JJ cut in and a lump formed in my throat. "No I haven't but I'm planning on doing so, once we get back." I replied and you could clearly hear the guilt in my voice. "Dude, how many times have we heard that before? 'I'm going to tell her once she feels better' or 'I'm going to tell her once we get back from France' but you never did!" He mimicked my voice and I winced. It was true, I have said that I was going to tell her a lot of times before but like he said I never did.
"I know but I was waiting for the right time!" I spoke up and they all sighed in unison. "There isn't a right time when it comes to such things. It just doesn't exist! You have to tell her that you cheated on her and on top of that you kept it a secret and lied for several months! How could there ever be a right time? You have to face the fact that she'll be mad and probably hate you no matter when you tell her so just man up and do it before someone else does because then you're screwed." Jaymi screeched out and I pulled my hair. "I know, I know! When we finish tour, I promise." He rolled his eyed and turned his attention back towards the video game.
He probably thought that I wasn't going to tell her and I couldn't blame him since I've said that a lot of times but this time I was serious. I couldn't keep it from her forever.
Not long after that we arrived in Bristol and of course everyone was pumped for our first show tonight except from me. That whole conversation we had in the bus definitely ruined my mood.
I didn't have time to go see my parents because we had a strict schedule but I would see them after the show tonight. We did have a lot of spare time since everyone had to do sounds check and rehearsals and so on since we couldn't do that all together. The boys and I watched most of the time and after that it was time to get our hair and make-up done and the meet and greets.
I was still not my usual self and I think most of the fans noticed since a lot of them asked me if there was something wrong. Well yeah I cheated on my girlfriend and have no idea how I will be able to tell her. I also don't want to loose because she means everything to me but I know she will, I mean why wouldn't she? But instead of saying all of that I just replied that I was tired but really excited for the show tonight.
Time went by fast and soon enough we were standing backstage, ready to go on stage. Even though I wasn't really in the best mood, I still managed to put on a fake smile on my face for the sake of our fans.
We were singing call me maybe when I looked into the crowed and saw her. She looked beautiful with her hair straightened and her make-up kept to the minimum. She came to watch my first show. And at that moment I felt all my sorrows fade away and my fake smile immediately turned into a real one. She was here to support me while she should be preparing for her first day of college.
I loved this girl more than anything, I couldn't live without her and realizing that soon I would have to do just that, broke my heart.
A/N
I'm sorry for the long wait but I'm currently at the beach and yeah it took a long while to write this since I don't feel like writing this story anymore. Sometimes I just want to stop all of this but then I realize that we only have 12 chapters or so left so yeah. We lost so many readers and hardly anyone votes or comments anymore and that makes me kind of sad because it feels like we are not doing a good job. But yeah thanks for reading and maybe vote and comment? Also I don't really know when the next two updates will be since Elin is writing those chapters. Btw keep in mind that I'm writing on my phone so there will be a lot of mistakes.
