The Crazy Life Of Me, The Unknown

What Else Can Be Done

                                                                               Chapter One

        It's 5 in the morning and all I hear is this loud "bang". I rub my eyes and get out of bed. I trip over my own feet in the dark. I look out the window and I see something I will never un-see.

        "BEEP BEEP BEEP" I wake up and realize it was just a dream. I'm a little shaken up but I get out of bed and get ready for school. I eat my breakfast, brush my teeth and almost fall asleep while I take my shower. I run outside and make sure to look down. I live in a troubled area. Gangs, weapons, and violence, everywhere. A man with scruffy facial hair and ripped clothing heads toward me I look down and try to ignore him. He rubs up against me and i shudder. He asks me if I'd like to go to his home I start to run. I finally get to school.

        When I get there I make sure I go the long way so I don't see... them. They bully me everyday. Throw me around hit me kick me and tell me cruel things. It doesn't bother me -OK maybe it does a little. It doesn't work and they see me. Those girls with there perfect blonde hair skinny bodies rich families. I wonder if they knew what i went through. If they knew about my violent parents how I'm abused at home how I don't need it here to. How I'm almost raped every single day just to get to school. How my parents also do hard drugs and drink how I have to raise my young siblings... I wonder. They book drop me and laugh then walk away. I pick up my books and I see him. That boy that always just watches sees my pain yet does nothing. He bends down and helps me pick up my books I look at him and smile. I never realized how handsome he is. The gentle curve of his lip the countless freckles his lovely green eyes, I snap out of it and say thank you. "no problem...don't let them get to you" he says. I nod and ask his name "Ryan, you?" I say my name "how beautiful" he says. I smile as does he. I walk to home room thinking about his smile and wonder if he's thinking about me.

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        He's all I can think about all day. I see him at lunch and he asks me to sit with him. I agree and sit down. "Where's your lunch?" I pause I don't know what to say if I tell him I'm poor I'll never. have a chance "I'm not hungry". "OH" he says. he drops his lunch tray down and looks at me and smiles. I wonder why he keeps looking at me. I'm nothing pretty. I have greasy hair and a crappy sweatshirt. I'm ugly and gross and fat like the girls say. He talks to his friends while I pick at the table. I catch myself staring at him I stop but I just can't help it. The bell rings and I go to math class.

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        I get home and walk slower there's less voilence in the afternoon. I see him again. It's weird he's always around me and I've never noticed it. He walks into his house. I know the people who live there how have I never seen him. I look away and run home. I close my eyes tight and walk inside. My eyes wideded I knew it would happen. My parents and siblings all 4 of them dead. I see a gun in my dads hand and bullet holes in my siblings and mother. I let a tear fall and I start to shake I run out the door to Ryans house. He looks at me confused and asks how I knew where he lived and what was wrong. I can't speak I pull him to my home and start to run he follows. I bring him inside and break down falling to the floor crying. I feel as if I'm falling through the floor and I hope I will eventually hit something and die. He lays next to me and wipes my tears. I look at him and stop crying he hugs me. He's so warm I feel safe in his arms. He lets me go and I feel cold. He asks me what happened. I say I'm not sure I came inside and... my voice trials off. He nods then calls the cops. 

        They show up and take them out of the house on a gurney they have white sheets over them. I see a syringe hanging out my mothers arm. Ryan sees it also and hugs me. I tell the cop everything and he nods. He says Ryan and I have to go with him. He puts us in the back of his car and drives away. I know my life will never be the same.