Jacks pov
Normal I think inside my head. I can't help but giggle. What is normal...normal is something people copy , someone that is pretty in someone else's eyes, your the average blonde that everyone understand, your perfect, or so you think. . .Only in your head you bully yourself into it. I am Bella I am below average. You'll never see me try to impress someone if I don't have to. I have a hard life but hey,ill live right?
I try to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies. I try to laugh about it, hiding the tears in my eyes....
Jacks pov
School, I get up around 6:30 and wake up feeling I never went to bed, I yawn get dressed go into the kitchen were I hope my guardian doesn't remind me to eat. She does anyway I get something and head out the door . . .I get on the bus I sit in the back with some friends of mine, They talk about boys I'm not interested I look out the window an take a deep breath. My stop is here and I get off. I see Jake he walks me to class telling me about another girl only to make me feel crappy or so to make me jealous which ill never be. . . He gives me a hug and leaves. I make it to lunch only to sit with a bunch of fake people that don't understand me, My friend pulls me aside and tells me "Emily" is telling most of my so called "friends" I'm a fake whore and that I cant be trusted. I simply say," I could careless what she says" my "friends" run to tell her what I though about her rude behaver and she is mad. I make it to the bus do my homework. I get up to leave and the snob says something of course I respond. It ended up her pulling my hair and me turning around and slapping her and walking off. I Let people push me to a point until a break.
I'm done, I've wasted enough tears, For people who done even care,
Jacks pov
Family, someone that makes you feel safe, someone you trust, someone that understands you, someone that's there for you when you fall, someone that's there every step of the way no matter how hard it is, Someone to cry on, Someone that knows your secrets, Someone that knows you inside out, Someone most people don't have, Someone I have never had. . . Family issues have been embedded in my life time. . . daddy issues, and my mother never really knowing who her daughter was. . . I know some of it was my fault and I put most of it on me... I just have always wished for a mom and dad to support me in my decisions not to judge me, to have family movie night were we all pick a movie to watch and enjoy each other company. For someone to tell a joke and feeling you cant breath because its so funny. . .Hopefully I will have that...Someday?
I want to sleep forever....
