Blank Paper
by JanielleDL
Staring in the eternity of nothingness, wishing to fill out the emptiness of the paper may be a difficult task to someone. Searching for the meaty words and quoted phrases with my friends in the form of pen and paper, my accompaniment to everyday life. I couldn't think of anything but the problem as it imprisoned me in the jail of fear. The absence of my topic creeps into my mind.
As I see the announcement against the white board standing in the main entrance of Cavite State University- Imus Campus, my heart skip a beat for I'm looking straight to another great challenge of life. The Student Publication Unit is looking for aspiring writers, cartoonists, lay-out artist and photojournalists that will be soon as one of them. Then, here I am, facing my paper, blue lines and the space between it, no words pass by my mind, nothing to write. I asked someone to lend a hand by suggesting any topic but we surprisingly end up talking about something else. I just get mad at myself knowing that I don't get the answers I'm needing. I decided to go home as the last class ended, I walked, commuted, rode my bicycle and found myself in the doorway of our house but still nothing cross my thirsty mind. I tried very hard to focus and remember interesting topic from the show I have watched, read and listened but then again, I found my thoughts in the middle of nowhere, flying above the clouds, drowned in my own failure. I'm beginning to lose the last shred of hope and swallow my dream but thank God, He gives me a bright idea.
Darkness is my fear but I never thought a white as snow paper could make me shiver to the thought of being blocked by words. But now, I can see that my weakness turn to be my strength and learn what is the significance of problems to success. Staring down to my now master piece that yesterday's a blank paper.
