Sleep Paralysis- Jungkook

Chapter 13

Soeun's POV

Today was finally Monday, it was the day where I was going to meet my only friend... Sowon. 

It wasn't that hard to find where she was buried because I just simply asked my mother, she and Jimin both looked at each other in confusion because they still thought I had amnesia. 

"How do you know her name? How do you know that she's dead?", Jimin asked me with a worried expression

"I remembered everything". I just simply said and both Jimin and my mother sighed in relief before it turned into a group hug.   

I got permission from my mum to skip school for today because she knew how much this day meant to me, and soon enough I was on my way to the graveyard with a bouquet of flowers that I bought on the way. And let me just say this, these were overpriced as hell, I felt like I was being ripped off by the people at the florist like I could legit just go out into the park and pick a few flowers and make a damn bouquet instead of spending this ridiculous amount of money on FLOWERS! 

But... I did it anyway because it was for Sowon, to make up for all those years I couldn't visit. if it was for her I would do anything. She was the reason why I was alive, she was so selfless and caring that she put her safety on the line to make sure I was safe. She was more than a friend, she was a hero to me. 

In the midst of my deep thoughts, I had arrived at a stone wall which had the words 'Seoul Cemetery' and I walked in through the gate. I held onto the piece of paper that had the location where she was buried, she was in section E3 row 7 and she was the 4th from the right. As I got closer to where Sowon was I saw someone in a black suit sitting down near where Sowon was buried, I was too far away to see who it was but surely as I walked closer I knew who it was... exactly. 

It was Jungkook... He was sitting there crying his heart out, I felt so guilty that I pretended I knew nothing because deep down inside Jungkook he still needed a shoulder to lean on, he needed someone to depend on. I was extremely close to Jungkook but he couldn't see me because I was behind him and he was too busy crying.     

I had to make a decision here, it was either I confront the situation and comfort Jungkook, or high tail it out of there and come back later when Jungkook leaves. The options presented were starkly different... one portrayed a selfish version of me and the other portrayed a selfless and caring version of me. 

I chose the selfish route...

I turned around and started to walk away. 

"Why did you have to leave us...", I heard Jungkook sobbing quietly.

It pained me so much to hear those words leave his mouth... he was so vulnerable in his position and that's when I did something I didn't expect to ever do. 

I turned around and I decided to comfort Jungkook, I needed him and he needed me. No matter how much I tried to act tough and like this didn't affect me... but it did. I placed my flowers next to Jungkooks one and sat down next to him and faced Sowon's R.I.P stone. Jungkooks head shot up and looked straight at me, he couldn't calculate what was going on... 

I just kept silent and waited for Jungkook to be ready so he could ask all his bottled up questions.  But minutes passed and he no longer looked at me, he was facing her stone, we both kept silent... it was the best for us.

Tears rolled down my face and landed on my knees, I was finally here on this day to meet Sowon, my heart was at ease. Hours passed and both of us haven't said a single thing. Then the rain started to pour over us, again we didn't speak or mover we just stared at the stone. In a matter of seconds, we were drenched in water and I was cold. But the feelings of coldness were all numbed, I didn't care how wet I was I just wanted to stay here with Sowon. 

Looking at her date of death made me cry and I finally cracked, I cried out to Sowon. 

"Why did you have to leave us so early, I'm sorry that I was weak and I couldn't protect myself... I should have been the one protecting you", I cried out while crying my heart out. 

I felt a warm pair of hands wrap around my shoulder and I was pulled towards Jungkook, his body felt so warm and peaceful, I felt his warm tears falling... 

I looked up to Jungkook and he looked at me, this time his gaze was different... the way he looked at me was so different. 

"I missed you...", Jungkook murmured quietly.