After a few weeks,
i finally grew the balls to apologize to my sisters for lying to them.
they forgave me.
but they don't trust me.
to be honest, i feel like that's normal. if they forgave me then thats a sign showing that they still care about me , even if they don't trust me.
which obviously means that i have to try my hardest to get their trust back.
no matter how long it takes.
if they wouldn't have forgave me that would've meant that they never really gave a fuck about me or ever cared about me .
Now i have to be there for them and not lie to them. i wouldn't be able to handle loosing them again. they've stuck by my side for so long and i wouldn't just give that up.
i am forever thankful to them for putting up with me for this long and putting up with my bullshit .
i love them with all my heart. i truly do consider them as part as my family. as my sisters.
you don't give up on family just like that .
i'm glad they didn't give up on me.
