I Realize Who I am Today

I realize who I am today.

It was right after I spoke to you I realized my demise,

I realized my desperate cries.

Cries of loneliness

And selfishness.

Were all because I realized I was not me before.

I covered myself with a false pride, which got me nowhere.

I shaved away the happiness you once brought me;

Even though I am still the lonely, selfish person I was before

I realized that covering it wouldn’t matter anymore.

Somehow, at some point in time

Your words just made sense.

They made me feel,

That made me crave your compassion.

Your love, that undeniable love you give to others!

My selfishness can get the best of me

But, is it wrong craving something that is good for you?

I realized I loved you today.

Maybe I always knew it, but denied it.

Maybe I noticed it, but turned it away.

Am I a bad person to take advantage of your lonely time?

To take advantage of your darkest hour?

Am I?

Please tell me that I am not because I couldn’t handle your cold shoulder.

Please tell me you feel the same

So I can go to sleep without any shame

Please tell me that you also realized today who I really am,

Because I am the person I shall be,

And that person would be nothing without me.