꧁༺Loser (G.B.D) ༻꧂

T H I R T Y F O U R

Grayson's P.O.V
I woke up with my arms around Ellie and our legs tangled together. I still feel bad for forgetting about her last night I just got so caught up with spending time with my dad. I can tell she is beginning to wake up and she is fidgeting and moving around. She rolls over and looks at me with that sweet smile I love.
"Good morning baby" I whisper kissing the top of her head and she hums into my chest
"Good morning you nervous?" She asks
"About what?" I ask and she giggles
"Finals. Our art is today how you feeling about that?"
"Oh yeah I almost forgot. I don't know how I'm going to do. I've done all the work you ripped up but I don't know if it's going to be at a good enough standard."
"Gray I'm so sorry about that I was just really mad and-" I cut her off
"I know ellie you don't need to explain I deserved it anyway that's behind us now. Hey I was looking into collages in New York and Columbia offer a great lacrosse scholarship and hat would mean we would see each other because that's were you want to go but I would need really good grades"
"Grayson your in set one for like everything. Your super smart" she smiles
"I'd need all A's"
"You can do that Grayson you just need to believe in yourself" she grabs my hands "I believe you can do this" she whispers and with that I had to motivation I needed to sit down today and Fucking ace all my exams

Ellie managed to sneak out this morning without Ethan seeing so that was good. however my parent wouldn't stop giving me funny looks so I said I would explain the situation later and they just nodded their heads.Me and Eth walked to school and on our way we saw Dylan and Ellie waking a bit in front of us. And for some reason Ethan sighs and looks at me
"Do you ever feel bad for what we did to them?" He asks.
"All the time. You?" I ask
"Just recently I've been thinking of why we did it and what good it caused in the end and I couldn't even come up with an answer. So yeah I do feel bad. I feel more then bad I feel guilty" he tells me
"Do you think we should like get the group together and apologise?" I ask and he runs the back of his neck
"Do you know what? Yeah let's do that" he smiles and so do I. It finally feels like normal like it was before dad was diagnosed.

Ellie's P.O.V
After our last exams me and my friends sit at my locker eating twirlers and gummy bears that Dylan brought in after we finished our exams. We were all just laughing about old memories and just silly stuff
"Oh my god do you remember Ronnie's first party we went to and Izzy full on collapsed in the middle of the floor" Dylan laughs
"Oh my god that was the first night we met Damon and Stephan" Chloe says getting excited at the thought of the older boys
"Oh my god and Ellie you and Damon-"
"Chloe stop" I groan rolling my eyes at the cringe memories
"And then you took Stephan off me so I guess you had both of -" she gets cut if again but this time not by me. She gets cut of by this cough causing us all to look up. When I look up my eyes instantly land on Grayson who looks slightly annoyed because his jaw is clenched and his hands are in fists. He is scaring me a little but not as much as his other friends who are literally all surrounding us. All of them are here. All of them.
"Can we help you?" Dylan speaks up and I snap out of my thoughts
"Listen guys we all came to the agreement that we were... horrible to you and we are sorry" Ethan says and we all sit there in what I can only describe as shock.
"So yeah we are sorry" Ethan repeats again. I was about to say something along the lines of just forget it let's not hold grudges but Chloe speaks before I can
"Oh So now your sorry? You think sorry is going to make us forget about what you did to us ? All the pain you put us through? No! Never" she says
"She's right you put us all through hell. You've beat the shit out of all of us and for what? For nothing and you guys expect us to forgive you worthless pieces of shit!"
"Yeah you beat us up. Exposed Dylan as being gay. Called us names. Made us feel bad about the people we are and your sorry? Sorry isn't going to cut it!" Izzy says
"Yeah so you can all fuck-"
"All of you enough!!" I shout over them and all my friends look at me confused
"What?"Dylan asks
"I said enough" I say annoyed
"Why? Have you forgotten everything they did to us for no reason?" Izzy asks
"YES! I don't want to remember I've moved on it's not worth remembering it's not worth holding a grudge. So thank you for your apology Ethan I forgive you." I say looking Ethan in the eyes he nods gives a weak smile and then turns away with his group and they begin walking away. I watch Grayson he still looks annoyed for some reason. Did he not do well in his exams?
"Ellie what the hell you forgive him?" Dylan says
"Yeah I do dyl"
"Why they have been so mean and-"
"I don't care Dylan can we just drop this. You don't have to forgive them but I want to" I say and they all sigh in unison. It's not like I want to forgive them because they put us all through physical and mental pain and no one did shit about it not even school but I need to forgive them - for Grayson ...

When I get home I run upstairs and ring Grayson but he doesn't pick up. I want to go to his house but that would be too risky.

Later on that night I heard a tapping at my window so I cautiously went to open it but I saw it was Grayson so relaxed and let him in
"Hey" He says and goes to  sit on my bed
"Hey you what are you doing here?" I ask shutting the window and going to sit next to him.
"Just thought I'd come and see if your alright" He says with a smile
"Gray?"
"Ellie"
"It was nice of them to come and apologise" I say
"I know that no apology in the world will repent for everything we did but Ethan actually feels bad and I don't know about the rest of them but I know Ethan is truly sorry."
"Why did you look so annoyed" I ask bluntly
"You saw that?"
"It was hard to miss"
"Well I over heard Chloe talking about you and those two boys something like Damon and Stephan and I guess I just got like I don't know maybe I just got a little jealous" he says rubbing the back of his black awkwardly.
"Awh baby Gray was jealous" I laugh and he rolls his eyes but then a smile plasters in his face as he pulls me on to his lap and starts kissing me passionately.
"You are mine and mine only" He says between  kisses
"Of course" I reply

We fall back on to my bed and make out.

God I'm in love