Chapter one: awake&dead

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And then I woke up.

the sudden realization that i was alive was shocking to me.

when i dream i have air in my lungs,warm blood flowing in my veins and i walk with no pain in my chest. in real life i only and painfully exist.

I woke up and the cuts on my fat hips were still burning like flames on my skin,the skin i tore appart because of the never ending war in my head.

I see the dry blood and I feel alive like a vampire that drinks it like gasoline.

Last night was rough.

I realized I will never be great.

I realized I will probably end up with a common job and cheap cars with kids that will suck the life I still have out of me.But I have so much on my mind,I do. I have greatness in the blood i pour everyday.what a waste of a perfectly clean skin.

what a waste of a good mind.I have many things to shout and to say and to whisper but I open my mouth and the worst things come out,things that i dont know where they come from.

My name is Mia Kathryn Im 17 and I live in the thin line between heaven and hell.Enjoy the ride.

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