TRIGGER WARNING: If anyone is triggered my suicide DON'T READ THIS!! Please don't hate on my for writing this!!
Toms been filming in Atlanta for a year now. You don't know how much longer you can go without him. Sam comes to check on you every week or so but you still feel alone. You call Tom everyday bet the calls are only for a few minutes and then he goes back to set. He works for hours on end so he's snappy and mean sometimes. You've thought if suicide before but that was when you were with Tom, and he helped you feel better and love your life. But no he's gone and you have no one. You walk over to kitchen and look at your knives. It would be so easy to end it all. No more sadness. No more pain. Just nothingness. No more fights with Tom. No more Sam reluctantly making conversation when he came. It would all be over. You grabbed a knife and walked over to your bed. Just one swift movement and it'll all go away. It'll all be done for. You lay down and are about to cut your self when you get a call. You pick up, it's Tom. Hey darling! I'm coming home soon! You say nothing hello? Are you there? You take a deep breath and say Tom, Im sorry. It's not your fault. I love you. You move the phone from your face and hear Tom from the other end NO DONT DO IT PLEASE I LOVE YOU DONT DO IT I LOV- That's when you hang up and start crying. Feel this? This pain? It'll be gone so soon. Just do it. You grab the knife and wipe your tears- "STOP! DONT DO IT!" I looked up and saw Sam and Harry running to me. Harry grabbed the life out of my hands and Sam stopped me from yelling and hitting both of them. "Y/n you don't want to do this. I know it feels right at the moment but you'll hurt more people than the number of people that hurt you." "Sam... how did you know?" "Tom called us, dreaming and crying, and he said that you were going to kill yourself and we couldn't let that happen y/n. All of us care about you too much." I wiped a tear from my face.
