Just some shit thoughts

Painting New Smiles, New Faces

I took a risk and said yes.

I'm fine.

I got attached.

I'm fine.

I believed you gave a shit about me.

I'm fine.

I let you in on my most vulnerable.

I'm fine.

You broke my heart.

I'm fine.

You got with her the same day.

I'm fine.

I bawled for the first time in months.

I'm fine.

We stopped talking.

I'm fine.

I hid the pain and painted new smiles.

I'm fine.

I believed it wouldn't hurt seeing y'all.

I'm fine.

I needed to be alone.

I'm fine.

You asked if I was okay.

I'm fine.

I painted another smile and said I was.

I'm fine.

I saw you with her.

I'm fine.

Y'all so happy together.

I'm fine.

I was wrong.

I'm fine.

I cried again.

I'm fine.

She rushed over saying he needed help.

I'm fine.

I painted a new face.

I'm fine.

I fixed him as best I could.

I'm fine.

He loves me but I still love the devil.

I'm fine.

I paint a new face.

I'm fine.

I say it's no big deal.

I'm fine.

I peel my paint when nobody is around.

I'm fine.

I let the salty pain roll out my eyes.

I'm fine.

I can't let anyone else see.

I'm not fine.

Still I paint a new face.