Stay With Me

Play the OST while reading the chapter... (The Italic was a  Lyrics of the song)

SEOKJIN

When you walk out of my life
I couldn't help but cry
You're leaving me behind

I listen to a music to my mp3. Finishing my homework then I heard a sound from our wardrobe.

It's Yoongi...

He wears my leather jacket and my back tight Jeans which I resemble at, it was so sexy especially when he placed on his black beanie.

"Where you guys heading?" I asked but I guess he doesn't listen to me. He just steps away to our room without noticing or responding to me. This is always our perspective...

When You walked out of that door
I just wanna scream some more

will you turn you're back around, please...

He progresses to his business, I'll go mine. He's constantly like that but I've always ignored that point he never cherishes me back.

"Hyung! " Hoseok beckoned me. "We're heading to the company..." I responded silently and they wander away unitedly, I saw Yoongi smile to Hoseok. Every time I noticed him with Hoseok. I'm not being skeptical to Hoseok not because he loves Yoongi being his boyfriend. Hoseok and Taehyung have a relationship so I don't resemble that way but if I true to my self. I feel bitterness saying I can be same as Hoseok, a sunshine that makes a downhearted mood of him, to brighten up but I have no match for him. First of all, I can't dance. Second I don't have an energetic body like him. Third I can't rap and lastly, he can make Yoongi smile. Even at lunch, he didn't prefer my cook he always contrasts it same as his mother at Busan. There are times he doesn't speak so often to unless to work. Even a simple "Hi! " nothing...

A time comes I witness Yoongi achievement when he doing great despite other members falling down but he never gave up. This is one of the sanities why I admire him... ~No! I love him most.~

One time there's a boy he possesses a chubby cheek, cute figure... I guess he's smaller than Yoongi. He introduced himself as Park Jimin. He's eye-smile make him more adorable. Then I looked at Yoongi's expression. I've never seen that expression before during the year. He approached Jimin and they giggle unitedly accompanying the others watching TV. I prepare a sandwich for them but when I witnessed, all of them eating a sandwich that Jimin make they smile and satisfying to Jimin made sandwiches especially Yoongi he don't like homemade food but he ate Jimin sandwich which is homemade also. I also see them talking and laughing. I was so delighted to comprehend them entertained each other but I believed I do not belong to them. -I'm separated...-

Time passed...

I need to concentrate on my study and those time. We're already recognizable, the more they appreciate BTS, the fewer occurrences Yoongi consider my feelings...

Taehyung doesn't want less line that's why I gave to him most of the line. It's doesn't bother.. if fans don't distinguish me so I'm an insignificant existence of BTS despite my position is visual. I maintain that image because that's only I have and the only thing I can help the group being visual. That's why I'll do lots of exercise and diet especially doing beauty care. Good thing Jimin and Jungkook always come with me.

There's an interview that held and asked which member of BTS is your crush?

I respond of course Yoongi and he only said nothing until then when Yoongi's shift he announced Jimin... My heart has a stung, it's just similar as a confession to man didn't like you. When the interview finishes I just ramble away like nothing happens. When we migrate to our new dorm, there's only 3 room which 2 room for 2 Person and the larger one for 3 persons. I secretly pray that my roommate was Yoongi. The manager assigns our room. I mentally thank him. I intimately happy move my things but as usual, his face was sullen and annoyed, as the oldest I need to compose myself and perform as a Hyung for him but does not happen despite he considering me as a Hyung,  I've never erased the fact, he only treats me as his Hyung. He really likes Jimin, one time I saw him reading a fanfiction and fan-made video about their ship called Yoonmin. I search on Google and saw a different photo of him and Jimin. The fans really like them. Even our manager make them together also in sports even where they together in archery. I've always ended up in losing thinking if we lose at vixx in wrestling. Ken apologize to me after what he said, he's my friend so nothing wrong with that. The archery event the fans keep chant 'Yoonmin' which make me irritate and at the same time hurt.