No one sees the pain deep within the lies,
im fine.
No one sees the cuts,
everyone thinks I'm over it,
everyone thinks I'm fine.
I'm tired of seeming needy,
I'm tired of feeling like I'm attention seeking.
So I stopped telling how I feel,
simply saying I'm fine.
When all I ever want is to be held and told its okay,
that everything will be okay in the end.
I want to be shown I matter,
and that people still care.
I want to stop crying.
I'm not myself anymore, I'm a mess,
consumed with darkness.
No one knows how dark the thoughts that cross my mind truly are,
but I know I couldn't do something drastic.
I'm tired of hurting the few people who care.
I'm tired of being a burden to society.
I'm tired of living.
One day I know it will get better.
I know one day it will all change and I will have a family who care about me,
but until then I shall remain a mess.
Unwanted by society...
