Change; An Edwin Honoret Fanfiction

20 [UNEDITED]

I've declared that I'm depressed.

I don't know if it's because of the fact I'm on my period, or the whole situation with my mother and Lucas or if it has to do with Edwin but all I know is that I'm really fucking depressed and I hate it.

Edwin.

It's been a dreadful seven whole days since I promised Hanna I'd tell Edwin that I like him, and on top of that, today is Venus' birthday party.

Venus always goes all out for these sorts of things, she's definitely the party animal of the group and although I normally love to celebrate with her and live our best lives on her birthday, she fucking invited prettymuch.

Which means I'll have to tell Edwin.

While I'm depressed.

I don't know if I can, especially tonight. What if it all goes south? What if I ruin Venus' party? What if-

"Stop overthinking and put the dress on" Venus sighs, sitting a shoulder less, mid thigh red dress on the couch next to me, I groan out of annoyance but also at the fact that she has no idea what the hell I'm overthinking. I haven't exactly.. told her yet, or anyone besides Hanna for that matter.

"And" she grabs a box from under the coffee table in front of us "I got you this choker and some heels" she squeals.

Choker?

Heels?

"Venus, you probably spent heaps on this and I'm sorry about that but, I'd rather die"

"Girl you'll look so good I don't know why you're complaining"

I give her a gaze that says 'you're kidding' before turning back to the heels.

"I'm not trying to have a broken foot V"

"You're being overdramatic"

"It's proven that-"

"Proven shmoven bitch climb up those stairs and get ready, it's four pm now and everyone is supposed to get here at six"

I punch her playfully before standing and draping the dress over my right forearm and holding the shoebox in my hand, I walk those dreaded seventeen stairs before turning into my room and slamming the cream coloured door.

Quickly after however it's opened again and I turn to the person in the doorway hastily before softening my eyes when I realise it's Hanna.

"Abigail, if you're gonna tell him do it in style. I mean normally you'd be trying to get some and I know that doesn't take much effort, especially since you're a social butterfly, but emotions? They do"

"I'm scared" as soon as the words leave my lips I cover my mouth, "I mean, no I'm not" I mumble into my hands.

She walks over to me and removes my hands from my mouth, holding them in her own.

"Of corse you're scared, rejection is an option when it comes to feelings and that's horrifying I know, but not only am I positive that he likes you back, but you're you! You have the ego of Kanye bitch who run the world?"

I cringe, "Hanna.."

"Yeah that sounded cool in my head but that's the worst thing that has ever left my mouth. Now come on and get dressed, I can do your hair and Laura has a hidden talent for makeup" she says as walks towards the doorway, before she leaves she quickly turns looks at me, "he likes you, it's not a question. Don't be scared of something as pure and wonderful as love"