wait for me // michaeng

« prologue »

mina and i have been dating for
a long time now.. ever since we met
i knew she was the one,

her gummy smile, her obsession with
penguins and especially her love that
she gave me.

but one day, our relationship went
down the hill.
she sent me a long message, while reading it..
my eyes starts watering up,
my heart was ready to drop.

when i was almost done reading it,
this one line at the
end hurt me the most.

"i know we have been dating quite awhile
now.. but i thought that i rushed too much
and we were too young to start it.
i think we should break up."
"but if you love me.. wait for me, i'm always here."
"i'll promise myself to comeback to you. if
i'm ready.. for a relationship."

those few words hit my heart, my tears were
rolling down my cheeks. i can't think right now,
should i wait for the time?

i knew it.. i rushed her to much,
i broke it. she left me.
questions are around my head,
did i rush too much?
- -
i cried and cried..
"was i rushing too much?" i ask
my roommate, Dahyun.

"chaeng.. stop overthinking,
maybe it was a good choice." she replies.

i wipe my tears hoping that it wouldn't
bother me when she's in class.

"all my love that i gave her
was useless then.."
my tears were like waterfall this time.

"maybe the time wasn't right.
or maybe she wanted to focus on
her studies?." Dahyun says.

"dubu.." she looks up to me,
"am i childish?" i ask without any expression.

"what? don't think it that
wa-" i cut Dahyun off,
"am i?"

she was frozen.
"ofcourse not.."
"if she thinks it that way..
why did she date you after all?
maybe it's not that you're childish."
"she has some reasons that led you guys
to break up.."

i sighed, "i'm tired.. i'll head to bed
now, we have classes tomorrow."

19/05/18 - 29/05/18

ig: pastelblinkk
⭐️