the dreams

broken

I don't own the art. That goes to the original  artist.

Just me venting:

I'm so  sick of  shit my heart is  broken and sore I'm  crying yet I won't let  anyone see because  they'll  just hurt me more. I cant trust anyone  anymore.  I'm just going to hide. Maybe stick to my job and writing for awhile rebuild  my life again after all my life really doesn't matter. I'm  numb empty and submerging  into the dark. Life sucks love ducks burn it all to the ground. It hurts when someone doesn't  care how they make you feel like they don't notice your in pain emotionally. I wish I could reverse time to when I was happy when I didn't have to worry about men or love or life especially  men because they don't seem to care ( no offense to Male readers I'm just ranting I mean the guys I know I've dated are like this.) Oblivious  to my feeling or emotions I'm sick of it lovers sick because they ignore your upset or in pain or frustrated or even when you work hard to clean the house they destroy it and yep they don't  care. They don't help yet they make you feel happy and amazing and their sweet yet they drive you crazy but you still love them anyway even if their no go for you.  My heart hurts anymore when I think of the past four years because I broke off a big piece of my heart yet I still miss it the one who has it doesn't know I still care but I couldn't  keep being  the main one to work everything  out. He'll  never know cause now he's already got a new girl a month later and moved on I am too but he has a big chunk of my heart still. It pisses me off even though he's  not here anymore he's  still on my mind and he gets my emotions just flaring and tearing.  I hate this I hate life anymore. I'm so  dead inside  yet I can only feel my pulse hate it I wish it would just stop beating cause then I wouldn't feel anything. When can I just close my eyes and sink under this dark water instead of gasping for air as it drowns me. Life suck you down into this black lagoon and slowly  drowns you little by little. Till your vision blurs and your heartbeat starts slowing down until it disappears under the sounds of waves. And the current pushes my body down into the sand and hides my existence from the world.