Emo Band Imagines

4. Brendon Urie: (Panic! At The Disco) "I've Never Been Kissed Before" Part 2

The next few days go by like this, and the longer the study sessions are, the bigger your feelings get for this nerd. Saturday rolls around and you arrive at his door, knocking on it. "Brendon, it's me! Your mom let me in."

He doesn't say anything.

You open it and see that some of the plants have started to grow and some haven't. You look at Brendon and see he's writing stuff down in the notebook you two shared for the project.

The closing of his door makes him look up at you. He smiles happily, setting his stuff down. "Look at this! It's amazing!" He goes on this big ramble and you do something you never thought you would do to him.

You kissed him.

Taken back by surprise, he doesn't know what to do. He gently puts his hands on your back and pulls you close. He gasps slightly and pulls away. "Wait."

"What's wrong?"

"I think you should leave."

"Wait what?! Why?" Shocked and confused, you watch as he gathers your belongings.

"Please just go." He rushes you out the door.

Standing on his porch, you take it all in. "What did I do wrong?" You mumble to yourself, tears threatening to fall out.

You run all the way to your house up to your room, collapsing onto your bed. Grabbing the nearest pillow, you start to cry. Why am I crying? I barely even know the guy, let alone have feelings for him?... right?

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End of flashback

On Monday, you arrive at school. Seeing Brendon in the hallway talking to Ryan and Spencer, you avoid him in every possible way.

Until Biology.

You see him and Brent talking and look down, not wanting to make eye contact. You sit down at the opposite side of the room, hoping that the tears you've been crying for the past 48 hours don't come spilling at this moment.

Putting your Blink-182 sweatshirt covered hand in front of your face, you sniff.

The teacher walks in. "Alright class, settle down." Everyone goes back to their seats and quiets down.

"Today, we'll be continuing the projects. Everyone get with their partner."

Oh shit.

Not now.

Brendon walks over and pulls the empty desk next to you and sits down at it. "So what I was thinking was — Hey, what's wrong?"

"Nothing I'm fine." You snap at him rudely.

"No. Something's wrong." He grabs your hand that's covering your face. "Tell me."

"What the fuck, Brendon!" You say a little bit too loud, quickly pulling your hand away.

The teacher looks up and glares at you. "Watch your language!" She says loudly.

"Yes ma'am." You turn to face him, his face sad and more confused than earlier. Not wanting to look at him anymore, you turn away. "Let's focus on the project."

"But—"

"Just drop it, Urie."

He stays silent.