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I talk about self-harm
And briefly mention suicide and anorexia
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So I've been feeling really bad again lately
And I've started cutting again....I know I should really tell my mom...but I just can't bring myself to do it
And I'm not really sure why
Maybe it's because I'm ashamed of it...
Maybe it's because I fear being judged...
Maybe I just hate the pitying looks, teary eyes and uncomfortable hugs.
Awkward talks/silence
I don't know....
I know I need help...
And part of me wants to get better
But there's also a part of me that wants to just get worse and worse
Part of me just wants no one to care so I can finally cut, starve myself and just end it all without the Guilt and fear of my family finding out
And I'm honestly not even scared by that part of me....
I used to be...
But now? No
I know I need to seek help.....but I just can't
