Life Lessons

Chapter 3

Chapter 3: How We Drifted

It's been many years since our school life started, and now we have many friends now that will accompany us wherever we go.

but I always get the feeling that one day everything will end. that this is all just a little dream yet somehow if feels so long.

Our graduation is over and we are starting a new life at college, we got separated again, even so we always find a way to get together but it's all a facade to hide what we really feel.

"I think we will never see each other again." hence she said to me while I just gaze in the sky.

"I know, it's not really hard to tell from the way you fidget around, you wanted to say something but you're too afraid of what the outcome is." it's not like this everyday that I spout long words.

"And you're okay with it? How?" she can't believe herself to the way I was behaving.

"It's always like this right? Your friend didn't leave you, you did, it's really clear to the way your family is, the busier the harder it is to get to stay the way it's supposed to be. but here we are now 4 years, after this we go to college, then we go to work, then someway or another we either wait for each other or leave each other behind. Starting a new life is not very hard nor very easy, but we still push ourselves to start a new one. Sometimes, You just have to leave everything behind and start all over again, to move forward, to be a better you."

Silence is filled through the night, it feels alright the silence feels drifting, drifting my sorrows away from what is about to happen next,

The feeling of saying goodbye to each other for the first time.

"Say, this is our last night right? why not we go somewhere before we start our new lives as different people again."

"Yeah, that's a better idea this is the last time right?"

The days flew by yet that last outing was never gonna happen, she already left, she's far away now and I'm here alone by myself.

It was the very first me in the story so I was never hopefull of having a joyful life with her.

It never cross my mind to be that way. All I ever wanted was a peaceful and silent life.

Yet why?

Tears are running from my face.

I'm not crying, yet tears are flowing.

I'm not in pain, yet it hurts.

If love really is like this, I don't want this.

I feel weak.

As I lay down in my bed I feel shattered.

I feel different from normal.

As I sleep through the night I always imagine her in my mind.

"So this is the final end, how ironic for me to be like this. it doesn't feel right, I'm just supposed to have a peaceful life, yet you came, you changed it, yet it's going to drift away.

Starting all over again is not easy and hard that is true. but I'll try, I'll be different."

The night past and morning shines. my eyes were reddish and sore.

I remember nothing from the last few nights.

I laughed at my sorrows and ate breakfast while searching at my laptop looking for a college to enlist into.