Ren X Haru~ {Super Lovers} Your Mine

Morning Sickness

AN: Music "Je'taime Toujours" should be played later on... :) There will be a note to when it should be played and listened to.
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Did last night actually happen?

Egghhh I hate Haru for doing that to me. I bash my head onto my pillow, immediately regretting it afterward.

My heads hurts. I place my hand on my stomach and the bile bitter taste of my previous yesterday dinner meal of rice balls is soon thrown up on my hands. My eyes widen at the horrific sight of the mushy warm gruel flowing and sploshed creating a disgusting acidic smell wafting up to my nose.

I run to the bathroom and kneel down resting my hands on the toilet seat. I throw up again. I lean down on the bathroom wall breathing very heavily from my puking incident, whilst trying to regain my composure. I lie there for a few seconds until the realisation of School, Breakfast, and Haru hit me and made me groan in agony.

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"I need to stand up, or else Haru is going to come upstairs!" I clear my train of thoughts and place my right hand on the wall beside. I then place my left hand on the wall, pushing myself up, and very slowly I try to stand up. My hands stick to the walls as they are still covered in the stomach acid and are dirty and unpleasant with a few rice plastered on them.

My unstable legs tremble and waver as I stumble a few times clumsily knocking down my cup containing my toothpaste and toothbrush. "Damn it," I cursed under my breath.

My fingers finally reach the safety of the sink and with weak fingers, I turn the tap slowly as though having difficulty gripping it. Water splashes on my face as it hits the sink running down the drain. I squeeze soap on my hands, rubbing three times precisely over and over again.

"I can't let Haru see me like this. I can't let him see him my vulnerable side!" It was a repeated mantra I kept telling myself in order to stay awake.

The coldness and the fresh lease of water clean and nourishing removes all signs of sick as I sigh letting out a relieved expression. Feeling a little better, I clean my mouth brushing my teeth for 5 minutes. Not stopping until I'm satisfied. My eyes linger on the mouthwash and I seize it hastily opening the cap as though it might disappear if I blinked. I drink a few sips and remembered the routine Haru taught me to gurgle and spit out the content in the sink. After a few minutes of swishing the thick minty liquid in my mouth, I spit it out and immediately felt more refreshed and better.

My eyes look straight ahead and the mocking mirror of my own reflection stares back at me, as though it's taunting me. I look terrible. My hair limp and covered in sweat hides my eyes. I bear in its shame. Pale cheeks with the mixture of grey and silver blended in, made me appear as though all the colour was drained from them, I officially looked like I was part of the living dead.

"Haru can't see me like this,"  I whispered under my breathe. I gazed at myself once more in the mirror and a sob broke out with all the emotions I was holding in deciding to create waterworks. "I hate him!"

I fell to the floor with the stench of sick stained on my pajama shirt. Why do I have to be sick today? Why did Haru kiss me like that last night?

"I-I can't live like this..." I thought miserably to myself whilst holding my knees and silently crying hysterically. I forcefully shut my eyes closed and registered my heart rate increasing fast. Am I having a panic attack? What were the steps Shima told me? Count from 10 backward... is that what I'm supposed to do? I began to feel a pure rush of adrenaline coursing through my body, making it difficult for me to breathe.

Deep breaths. I can't think irrational thoughts, I need to think clear.

10... His silky snowy hair, which I always touch without realising-

9... His calming voice always seems to make me fall asleep dreaming sweet dreams-

8... His kind eyes, that always seem to bewitch me without any warning-

7...His strong safe arms were the first who held me with care and love-

6... His cat-like stunning eyes, to which they speak first-

5... His beautiful laugh, that trembles my heart making me feel lost-

4... His soft lips, stopping my words when he kisses me-

"H-Haru" My voice broke.

3... His sweet scent to which I fall instantly for-

2... His shared love for all his brothers-

1... Three words causing me the greatest of pains-

My pulse rate slows down and I slowly stand up brushing away tears. I won't tell Haru what happened... I don't want to worry him and cause a fuss. He already has too many things to do, my sickness is insignificant. I need to get changed, or else Haru will begin to worry.

I walk towards the closed bathroom door and my hands tighten around the handle. Taking a deep breath, I push the door and instantly fall into strong safe arms-

"Ren?"