21st Century Love Story

The Aftermath

I am a wreck. 2 years into college and I find myself questioning all my decisions that have led me here. How did I end up like this? I was an overachiever. I passed my subjects with flying colors. 1 mistake out of 100 items was not unusual to me. People around me admired me because of my so-called potential. 

"You're smart."

"You'll have a good career when you graduate!"

I often heard.

Now, no matter how much I tried, I find myself falling short. I grow weary of staying up until 3 am studying, fueled by nothing else but caffeine, only to barely pass my tests. The heavy books on my back feel 10 times as heavy. The words coming from my professors' mouths are nothing but unbearable buzzing that violate my ears. Every single day in university felt like a dragging dull lecture that you just wanted to end.

It wasn't like I had any troubles. We were financially well-off. I had a family that supported me in everything I wanted to do and a steady boyfriend of 4 years whom I loved dearly. So what was wrong with me? Why do I feel so empty?