Do you believe?

I don't believe

" Let's break up.. I don't love you after all.. and you're boring.."

He smiled as he walked away from me.Those were his last words. After that, it was rumored that he transferred to a far place and decided to continue his studies there.

But a few days later I heard some rumors again. And this time, they said that he was going out with someone already and that when he was here he was playing around with 5 girls.

At first I didn't want to believe it, but then I saw a video. A video of his last day here. He was drunk and he admitted all of it. He was even proud of it...

I used to be one of the smartest person in our school, but that doesn't mean I'm wise, I was naive.

I wasn't wise for I wasn't able to distinguish whether it was really love or not. And yet I let my emotions get through it.

But now, I decided to get stronger, to be wiser and to never let my emotion get in way.

I...

I want to be tougher...

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"Delly!! "

Some one suddenly jumped on me from behind. I was startled and when I looked at it, it was just Jett.

" What do you want?"

"Hey hey, there you go again. We're already on our second year in high school. Why don't you loosen up a bit, try to enjoy things and come with us this weekend?"

" Not interested,"

" Come on! It'll be great!"

"Mixers will never be great.."

" jeez Delly,"

"I'm busy and I still have to finish this book. I don't have time for such things."

" Hey now, you should make some friends, you'll creep the hell out of them if you always sit on your chair and keep on saying weird stuffs."

"I'm not."

" All of them are into the new transfer girl. You're being left behind."

" Who cares.."

"Jeez, You should start retouching, changing your lifestyle as well as your image. You used to be that cool, smart and reliable Delli. Just when-"

I glared at Jett to stop her reminding me about the past. She looked apologetic for that and then went out. That's right, I used to be that girl but not anymore. I don't really care anymore..

I am Dellilah Walden now in 2nd year high school. I'm just an antisocial, nerdy girl with thick lens and thick books. I wear a cardigan even though it's not cold. I'm an introverted girl and no one ever befriended me except for Jett. We are childhood friends since we live on each other's neighborhood and I feel bad for her since she was trying to bring back the old me but I keep on pushing her away.

I just can't do it. I can't be the same Dellilah she used to know.

As I look around, everybody already went home so I packed my things up and grabbed my bag then walked out.

The sun dusk almost hit the entire school. The orange color of the sunset. I walked through the rooms, and it was all empty and quiet.

As I changed my shoes at the locker, someone suddenly jump on me.

" Jett, stop doing that." I said with an annoyed tone. I heard her giggled and when I looked at her. It was a different person.

" So you must be that close to Jett," She said and smiled at me.

It was the transfer student.

I don't really know her and I don't care.

"Oh, She's the one and only person who jumps in me."

And more likely, she's the only friend I have in this school, right?

"Oh, I see.."

She smirked annoyingly again. I don't really get what she wants so I just bowed my head and went off.

As I walk, I can still feel her presence when all of a sudden she walked beside me.

-.- what is it that she wants?

"What do you want?" I asked her as I look at her

" Can I call you Delli too?"

"Do what you want," I walked faster and yet she was still following me.

" What now?"

" Hey, aren't you glad I'm talking to you?"

" huh?"

" Well you see, I'm popular after all."

I got tongue tied, like what the hell.

I looked at her but she wore that poker face that makes it hard to read her so I ignored her and continued walking.

"You can call me Jay and by the way by the way, I like you."

I was a bit startled but brushed it off. What kind of like anyway? There are a lot of different kinds of like. Which one?

I furrowed my eyebrow and continued walking.

"I'm serious!"

"Yeah yeah,"

I don't really care so I just continued ignoring her when she suddenly stood in front of me with her arms blocking my way.

" Did you heard what I said? I like you."

"Ugh, okay. Thank you"

I tried to get through but she's still blocking it.

What the hell does this girl really want to do?!

"Romantically, I like you in a romantic way. I want to go out with you and do romatice stuffs"

"Eh"

That was a bit overrated and unexpected but what am I supposed to do on that? It's not like I like her and I'm into that.

"Okay, can I go now?"

"Don't you believe in me?"

"I don't, that's obviously something you made up to get my attention. Whatever the reason behind it, I'm not interested"

I forcibly breakthrough her then after that she stopped following me.

After all, they were all the same.

Really, people like that makes me sick.