Nothing Left To Fear (Book 1 of 2)

The Return

Brianna’s POV:

The guys come back tomorrow and I wasn’t sure how I was gonna handle the whole me and Nathan thing. I was a little confused after my last attempted phone call to him, so I decided that I wouldn’t go to the airport. I wasn’t sure if it was my best idea, but it was my only reasonable idea at the moment. Nathan had texted me saying that he couldn’t wait to see me but after that phone call, I wasn’t sure if that was still true. So I decided that I would respond just in case it was true. It’s sad though; I never know how to respond to him because I never want to say the wrong thing, so silence is best.

My emotions definitely took over the last two weeks because I would be happy when he texted, nervous to respond and too confused to respond at all. I know that I seem like a loser but he meant something to me and I didn’t wanna mess it up. Unfortunately there seemed to be only one person I could talk to, and that was Marcus. He was so nice to me and he helped me deal with this whole thing. Honestly, I didn’t think that Marcus and I would grow this close but I guess things change with time. Marcus and I texted every day for the past two weeks and I’m glad we did. Marcus not only helped me realize my true feelings, but he was always there when I wanted to talk about anything.

Sadly, I wasn’t sure how well the guys would treat Marcus. One thing was for sure: I had to introduce Marcus to the guys tomorrow. I had a feeling that the guys wouldn’t like Marcus because he knows so much about me and because well, he’s a guy. The guys are really protective of me when it comes to other guys but I don’t know why. And even though I had a bad feeling about that, I wanted all of my friends to know each other. I really hope things go well. I can’t take any more emotional stress.

Nathan’s POV:

I was leaving for the airport tonight. I couldn’t believe that the two weeks were up. I was so happy to be heading back to New York so that I could see Brianna and explain that one phone call. I really hoped that she didn’t think that I met another girl here because I wouldn’t do that to her after all the calls, voicemails, and texts I left. I really just wanted to cuddle up with her and tell her how much she meant to me. Ugh, but leaving my family was hard because they only had me for two weeks before I have to go back to New York and then do a tour for the next eight months. Leaving them was harder than leaving Brianna because they’ve been through everything for me and I don’t wanna disappoint. “So, you excited to see her again?” Jess said while snapping me outta my thoughts. “Um yeah, why you ask?” I wasn’t sure why Jess was so interested in my love life but at least I know she cares. “You know, just asking.” “No, seriously, why you asking?” I asked waiting impatiently. “Well, I want you to be happy and not walk away from another relationship heartbroken.” I was hoping that my family forgot about my last girlfriend because that was the worst relationship I’ve ever been in.

Well, what happened was, I dated this girl from Gloucester. Her name was Brooke Smith and she was different from the other girls in Gloucester because she didn’t care what people thought about her and she stood up for herself. We went on a few dates and the next thing I knew, we were dating. I had some great moments with Brooke and I was hoping that we would be together forever, until that fateful day. Brooke and I dated for eight months and we were really happy, at least I thought we were.

Then the day before our nine month anniversary, I walked in on her cheating on me. I didn’t want to stay because the longer I was there, the more heartbroken I was. I didn’t stay to yell at her. I just left. As I was walking out, I heard her calling me but I couldn’t even look at her anymore. She became nothing to me after that. She toyed with my heart and broke it, so I cut her out of my life. She called me nonstop for two weeks trying to explain what happened but I couldn’t even listen to her. I couldn’t answer the phone because I was too heartbroken so Jess finally answered the phone. Jess was on the phone for a while but she told Brooke that I never wanted to see her again and that she should never talk to our family again because we’ve lost all respect for her.

I loved Jess for that because she was helping me get over her. I couldn’t believe that Brooke would do that after we constantly told each other how much we loved each other. Her cheating on me opened my eyes and it helped me realize that girls will do whatever it takes no matter who they hurt. After Brooke, I thought I’d never love another girl as much as I loved her, until I met Brianna. Brianna was different because she’s beautiful and she doesn’t even know it, she’s clumsy but is a dancer, she’s beautiful without make-up, and she sees me for me.

After thinking about my past relationship, I realized that Jess had a point. However, Brianna was different and I knew she would never cheat on me. “Aww, that’s sweet Jess but you won’t have to worry about this one.” I said reassuringly. “And why won’t I have to worry?” “Because she’s not like the others. She didn’t even know who I was when we first met.” Jess seemed confused so I continued. “Jess, her not knowing who I was means that she got to know me and not Nathan Sykes from The Wanted.” Jess seemed to understand now and there was a huge smile on her face now. I was so happy that I could talk to someone else about this whole me and Brianna situation.

Jess looked a little uncertain after I was done explaining but then she said, “If you really like her and want her, you’re gonna have to fight for her. She doesn’t seem impressed by materialistic things. Go after her Nathan and don’t let her go.” I smiled at how supportive Jess was. But as our conversation ended, we pulled up to the airport. I got all of my bags from the back, hugged Jess goodbye, and then headed to my flight. I kept smiling at what Jess told me because she was right. Good things, like Brianna, aren’t easy to come by and I wasn’t giving up. Once I got on the plane, I got a text from Jess: “Don’t give up, fight for her. xxx” After reading that, I fell asleep with a smile on my face. This time at home was definitely beneficial. I’m just hoping that not much has changed at home.