More of Lou

"Here we are." I say looking anywhere but his blue eyes. If I looked him in the eye he would know something was up. He always knew.

"At the airport." He continues, trying to catch my eye. But I can't look at him, not yet.

"Saying good-bye." I finish as fresh tears start to fall from the corners of my eyes.

"This isn't good-bye. We never say good-bye, we're best friends forever and always, remember?" He tries comforting me, wiping away my tears.

We hear the anouncement, they're boarding the last passengers of his flight. That's when he opened his arms and I collapsed against him. My boy, my rock, my everything, he was leaving. I looked into his shining blue eyes, I knew I had to time this right.

"I love you." I say, my voice steady as I stare into his eyes.

"Love you too, Monkey." He says letting an easy smile form on his face, using his nickname for me.

"No, no you don't. And you never will, you're my best friend but I can't play this game anymore." I whisper. Keeping eye contact I moved in and pecked him on the lips. We've never kissed before, and never will again.

"I love you, more than this. That's why I'm letting you go. Good-bye Louis." I whisper with new tears streaming down my face as I push the speachless boy I love into the line to board his plane, and run away. I run away from my everything, but not from my feelings. I love him and always will.

I walked out of the airport. And I walked out of his life. He wanted more, and I wanted more. He wanted more of life, and got it. I wanted more of him, and lost it. We both wanted more than this. So I let the one I love free. Free from me.

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I have been bestfriends with a boy named Louis Tomlinson since I was one years old, and he was three, when our parents introduced us. I have lived next door to him and his family since before I was born. And I have loved him as more than a best friend, more than a brother, since I was seven years old. For twelve years I've loved him.

For twelve years I've wanted more than this. When he left to live his dream, he also left me. I realised this and decided to end the game. I don't play the "one best friend loves the other, completely clueless and oblivious one" game anymore. And I never will again.

We told each other everything, but I had one secret. One secret I didn't tell him until he was leaving. I've had a crush on Louis Tomlinson since I was seven years old, and I've loved him for five long years. When he left to be on The XFactor, I told him the only secret between us. And haven't talked to him since.

*2 years later* BAM! Back in each other's lives. What will happen? Read to find out.