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I don't know how they start the story.

But I think a simple introduction will do.

Hi. My name is Jurnis. It is a name with no meaning at all. Even if you search it on Google or those websites wherein they give you the meaning of your name the results are always a zero or maybe you misspelled it. Before this name meaning gets sadder and sadder, let me add my own meaning to my name. I believe my name came from the word " journey " just add the letter s on the end and there you have it " journeys " sounds like my name which is Jurnis but with different spelling.

I'd like to say I have a mini journey of my own.

And it starts now.

It is quite ironic on how I am able to give out love advices to couples or my friends even though I am single right now. I'm not an expert when it comes to love but I'm a bit experienced.

My first love.This is one of the stories I can proudly say was beautiful. Though it didn't have a good ending but still the struggles and the lessons I learned is worth it.

I'll just used the name "G" for my first love.

G is the type of guy who is fun to be with. We never ran out of things to say, we stay up late and all those lovey dovey stuffs. He wasn't the guy who gets mad immediately. He had more patience than I did. He was just really special. But the thing is, I don't know if he really liked me at least. You see Girlie was his everything back then. He loved her the most. I can't deny that fact. The hard part for me is that hoe can I live up to his expectations at least? Or maybe how can I be like Girlie? I was bothered and paranoid. But that didn't stop me for being who I am and on how I can show my affection. He still amazes me up to now. The sad part is that I was traumatized when I tried to talk to him recently. The conversation went bad. He overruled me. I was an underdog. That was the first time I saw him like that. But who am I to care? Right? I still miss him and all but I'm sort of okay. At least everyone's happy I guess.

Everyday I remind myself to be happy or at least even try to be positive. I can be pessimistic in life. When this negative thing hits me, I think that I can never be whole again or I can never make it to someone's expectation. The lessons here are:

1. When you fall in love with a complete stranger, try to get to know him/her more. Time is very important when it comes to that situation. I don't suggest to trust that person a hundred percent. Remember that the people you trust can be the one who keeps talking behind your back.

2. Be true when you say the words " I love you. "

3. Never compare yourself to another person. We are all different and special. Learn how to appreciate the things you are capable of.

4. Remind yourself that you can survive through all of this.

5. At the end of the day, there is always this person who is ready to listen to you.

( to be continued )

Thank you Dianne 💕