This is just a fruit of imaginative mind. But somehow, it really happened on me. Here it goes.
Legend (Conversation) : girl - * ; boy - **
It was July 1, 20**. The mood was calm. The atmosphere was relieving. The whole place was covered with silence. I scanned my phone expecting for his message but I found nothing. HE -- the person whom I really admired until now. I bowed down my head and prayed with hope for him to come 'coz I'm badly needing him that time.
"KRIINNNNNNGGGGG!!!!", finally, my phone had rung expecting that it was him. And luckily, YES! It was him. It's been 3 weeks since we'd departed and let each other seek our own happiness. No communication. Until I found out, he has his new girlfriend. A lovely young lady.
"Hello? may I know who's this?" I asked him unconciously though I already knew it was him.
"Hey, it's me. Aren't you familiar with my voice?" he replied.
"Oh! I'm sorry! hey, it's you. Again. uhm, how are you?" I asked again.
"Well, still okay. But it'll be better if only you were here -- " **
"Crazy." *
"Yes it's true." **
"You shut up." *
"No, I won't." **
"Well fine." *
"Uhm, are you free tonight?" **
"Yeah. I guess. Why?" *
"Well, can I invite you?" **
"Where?" *
"Anywhere. I just want to .. " **
"Want to??" *
"Want to see you. okay? see you tonight? my treat." **
"Sure." I muttered again unconciously. My heart beats very fast and I can't help. I can feel my face blushing. I can feel the coldness inside coming out. I can feel the warmth. I can hear the inner entity of my being. I had experience again the happiness of being addicted with the ecstasy I had been wishing for. I see myself smiling again from the hidden sadness it had brought before. And this would be the moment that I should let myself happy again, I thought.
It was still 6:00 in the morning but I started to prepare for the coming night. Seconds, minutes, and hours had passed. I started to feel ithe ntensity. My heart was like thumping. My knees becoming numb. And my whole body seemed not moving.
It was 3:00 in the afternoon when I got his message:
"Hey, are you ready? Let's go to church"
I replied him:
"Yes. around 4:00 in the afternoon? At the church? Am i right?"
He replied:
"Okay. See you later. :)"
It's coming nearer. Until the time came. As I arrived at the church, he was already there. Standing outside the candle house. It's around 4:30 when I arrived.
"Hey, you are late again. As you used to do." he said while giggling. I just smiled staring at him. He also stared at me then he said, "Let's go. The mass is about to start."
We attended the mass together. After the mass we'd went to the park where we usually stands by when that we were still. I was nothing to talk. I was empty. And I can't open any topics to talk about.
Hours passed. It was already 8:00 in the evening. I suggested to go home because I have still classes the following day. Then, we started going home. As we were on the road through our house, he opened the conversation.
"Can I ask something?" he asked.
"Sure. What is it?" I replied.
"Can we be? -- Again?" **
I was stopped. I was empty again. I was about to cry by joy. He hugged me tightly. Then he whispered to my ears, "I miss you". Tears were about to fall. Without any hesitations, I answered YES unconciously. He tried to reach for my lips and I just let him do it. The fire begins to burn my being. And that night was the night of the beginning of my exasperated mirth.
He walked through me to the house. Before he left, he left me a with kiss and he hugged me tightly that caused the fire to burn again my being. The tears were about to fall and I don't know why. I went inside the house and directly went on my room. I feel senseless. I meditated. And i reminded myself, "she had already a new girlfriend. Why does he need to flirt again with me?" I was crumpled. I cried. I sleep.
July 2. I woke up at around 4:30 in the morning. i scanned my phone. No message coming from him. I kept on thinking about what had happened last night. I thought it was all a dream. All I wanna do is to clarify things with him but I don't have the strength to do so. I waited until 6:00 in the morning. Still, no message coming from him. I lose hope.
9:00 in the morning. I saw him. Holding the hand of the girl. I was hurt. Really hurt. Now, the things were clear. It was all an illusion. I found out from his friend that today was their monthsary that crumpled me so much. Again. And it made me realized, what had happened last night was just a representation of his last goodbye. :(
It was Monday. I wasn't able to go to school on that day.
- END -
#Tintine.06 <3
