decision

" Suicide is my friend among the Angel and the Demon . "

August 14, 2014

Tears betrayed me and ran down my cheeks. I tried to resist the tears from falling but it was no use. I looked down no longer afraid of the height of this bridge. I remember long ago how as a young kid I'd take strolls near the bridge each day. The blue river crashed through each corner and made sharp turns to each time it became more vicious.

Jump. It's really simple , darling. Just jump.

I looked down once again and gulped hard.

I closed my eyes and heard the cries of the river wanting my body. Craving my body to be in the cold water more and more.

I looked around and saw there was no soul around here.

You foolish child of earth , why don't you just die already ? You have the chance to be in the underground world , hell. Why still be in the living world when people are dying to come here , to hell ?

That voice.

It wouldn't shut up. It never shuts up. I grown sick and tired of its suicidal saying just encouraging me more and more.

JUMP FOR FUCK SAKES !!

I started breathing heavily and panting. I was choking on my sobs. The wind blew in my face drying my tears away.

Again , I glance down and cried silently.

" Suicidal people are just angels trying to go back home " I said but it just sounded like I was just reassuring myself.

" Hey !!! "

I turned around with a swift and felt my right foot slip. I was dangling gripping in a side of the bridge. I looked down. Right now I was determined to let go but before I could fall into the river someone was grabbing my wrist with a death , firm grip

" What the fuck are you trying to do !? "

I looked up but couldn't make out the figure in front of me because of my glassy soaked eyes.