not everything is rainbows.

40 // Finale

As I finally looked away from Scott, he spoke. "Autumn told you," he sighed.
"Yeah, Scott. She told me what you should have. We talked about Leslie! Why didn't you finish the story?"
He chuckled, "I'd prefer you call me Scottie. Or babe. Maybe even baby." As I looked over, he was winking.
I rolled my eyes, "Thanks for letting me know. I'm never doing it again."
His smile dropped and he put an arm around me, and I shuffled to the rim of his arm so we wouldn't be close, but his hand would still rest on my shoulder. He sighed and removed his hand, "Rachel, you know that I'm over her. Don't play this game with me. It was mostly my sister, not even Leslie all that much. It was hard to have so much loss."
I gave in and scooted back into his arm. He lifted me into his lap and stroked my hair. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. I put my head on his chest and faced toward the dinner. I pulled my legs onto his left leg and my butt was on the right. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead. After ten or so minutes, I asked a question that has been bugging me since I found out he was a widower, "Scott, if you could have her back, would you?"
He rubbed my leg with his left hand and stroked my back with his right as he whispered, "I don't know." He inhaled the scent of my hair, "I think about that a lot. Ever since I've met you."
I swallowed the pain and asked a different question. "What if she was still alive and you had met me?"
He twisted the ends of my hair and said, "I'd be a conflicted man. It's like this, would you rather be with your first love or your last?"
I smiled, "I'm your last love?"
A smile danced in his voice, "Ray, you've been my love since I saw you crying in the elevator."
I pivoted to face him, "Oh really?"
He smiled, "Yes."
With that, I clashed my lips on his and felt the same spark that I had when he was swaying in the elevator, or when he stood up for me while buying our beds, or how he held me when I was almost raped. I love this Scott Winker so much. I have no idea what I'd do without his kisses.. his cuddles.. his family. My life has changed this year... epically. I saw my future when I looked at him, smelled him, heard him, or anytime I loved him. I love him.

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IMPORTANT NOTE! For now, "not everything is rainbows," is complete! In the near future, I'll clean up the edges of this book and make a sequel! For now, I'm taking a small break from writing for maybe a month. Thank you for your support and time. More than anything, I'm praying that you'll continue giving love and support. This story meant a lot to me. Scott has touched my heart, and I've had thoughts like "how can I improve?" I had such bigger plans for this book originally but I felt like this was a good place to stop. I'm hoping this will be a series! I don't wanna make this note longer than the chapter, so. As always, stay tuned. I hope you enjoyed.. until next time!

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