Missing Puzzle Piece

  Intoduction

What I want most in life is for someone to love me, and tell me that over and over again... At least that's what they said... It's been i love you's and goodbyes and what do you get out of it...nothing..... I honestly want to forget the whole thing altogether and really get to know myself.... but is it really that easy??

Never let anybody tell you that you have a certain obligation to pursue because they don't know who you are, the real you, the one that I know you can show people..... People have been wanting to be someone that they build and push onto the next person, then the next. Which is really hard for me, because i'm one of them. Don't ask me what my name is, and what my story is and how I know this... Just know that I'm one of you and I know what you are going through....

Let's just say that my name is unknown to you, and this pages are the secrets to how my life goes... Nobody will know who I am, unless I tell you which will overall make me one of you.... I wish I can reveal the true self, behind this, but I really want you to understand, that if you meet somebody, especially the ones that you have known your whole life...Can you really trust them and know that everything that you say, is kept inside of them... Do you really and truly know who they are....I'm gonna promise you this the only thing i want you to do for me, is to keep me and my story a secret. Even though i'm unknown from anybody...

I may or may not in danger, i'm just a person, that wants to write what they really feel about the world..What I truly believe in and how I see through your perspective. The one person that relates to everybody, to feel the pain and regret, everybody is feeling in order to deeply understand their message....Don't get me wrong,someday I hope to create a world where the only thing that you have to focus on would be what you care about. A world with no stress, work, school, and trouble.

 Chapter One- Hurt, Regret and Insecurities

I know that in schools, you end up getting hurt, you loose the most important things in the world, and nobody will care about you once they abondon you, The same thing when you go to work, you work so hard and then you just end up losing all the things that you love.I hate how things end up to be so easy for some people, like it's a gift waiting for them to open it. Some people have to spend countless hours, and energy just to gain the respect to those who don't know what they are capable of....These are pages to the story of your life, the glitches, and errors of the mistakes you made in the past. No matter what, you will always stay grounded to your true being. Even if you don't like it most of the time.

Maybe i'm wrong, which isn't a surprise to me because I do make mistakes, which I regret alot of times. Which kinds sucks, life is nothing that you expect. Sometimes, you make the most stupid decisions and end up losing anyways, like popularity for example. No matter how many times you moves schools it is always there. People who only care about image and reputations, which puts people in an awkward position, sometimes...  Girls in this area would wear make- up, dress in designer brands and throw themselves on guys, take selfies, swear, always get away with anything, gossip, and give attitude to those who don't hang out with them. Guys are the exact same thing they wear clothes that you find on hot celebrities, throw parties, swear, get girls practically everyday and play games with every person that they come across them. Then they end up showing their attitude either way.

Nobody knows who you are, and they just do it, so that they can make other people feel bad.I found out the hard way. Missing every single chance, to talk to people who you lost, to the group that everybody is talking about. They are like some kind of celebrity that almost everybody looks up too.I honestly am fed up with the shit that we have to deal with. They say so many things that people want you to believe, and tell you that everything is going to be alright. I don't think they know the real you, even though it is said more than once. What I said earlier about love and finding the one, saying good bye and hello. Knowing that you'll never find someone like that person. Is it really true?? I've been living lives that i didn't mean to, you are thrown into different people with different perpectives ,every time your life ends.