Hold my hand and dont let go (bts x depressed reader)

You Don't Really Know Me

Y/n pov

Kiss. That's all I thought it was that kiss. How his lips touched mine. How my heart still can't stop beating. It was too much for me to handle. I smiled or blush of the thought of it. I felt better just great. I was able to smile a real one now. I called Hoseok, Jungkook, and Jimin so we could hang out. Never really hanged out with Jungkook or Jimin not even Jin. I looked at the cuts on one wrist. Broken promises...I came out of my apartment with jeans and a striped shirt. Heading to Jimin's house. I went to a store to pick up something for the three of them. Getting them things they seem to like. Getting Jimin a handy umbrella because I never saw one at his house, Hoseok a candy bar since he likes to be hyper, and Jungkook...I gave him a necklace, that had a small ring on the bottom. I headed to go to Jimin's apartment. Seeing them there I gave them a big hug.

"I missed you~!" Jimin and Jungkook said hugging me at the same time. Hobi looked tired but still smiled. "I have gifts! Here." I handed them out explaining why I got them. "Oh...snickers bar." Hobi scoffs out. I just looked confused but let it slide. Then Jungkook put on the necklace happily. Jimin put the umbrella to the side of the door way.

Hoseok pov

She handed me the candy bar looking at the brand I scoff remembering what my mom left me. The carnival I went to being abandoned and alone. It just gave me memories. We all headed out. She seems okay it's like she never had a problem in her life. It was night when we were hanging out so she was happy of course. Seeing her wearing the same ring, "Can I see your wrist?" I was curious to see if she ever stopped. She nodded and showed me three cuts I saw. I grabbed her arm. "Why are you still doing this?" I asked hiding it away from the younger guys. "Because...I couldn't handle feeling empty for so long..." she responds with a gloom look. "But you always have us why didn't you call any of us?" I asked she yanks her hand away from my grip. "I couldn't ask anyone because I knew you all would freak out. That's why. How could you relate with the feeling of being alone and sad with no one to see?" I froze from what she said. She immediately remembered what I told her, "Oh-no Hoseok I'm sorry-" I chuckle looking down and looking back at her. "No, it's fine it's pretty obvious you don't really know me. Not knowing what I went through alone at that stupid carnival with no one for a week wearing the same clothes at school. But-no it's okay. You just don't understand the reasons why I feel like this. You  don't include the fact that I was heart broken or I was left." I stand up from the chair and looked at the three of them. "See you guys..." I told them as I walk off.

Suga pov

Opening the lighter on and off. Sparks. I look at my room and imagine it lighting up in flames taking me with it. I wanted to do it so bad but remembered all my friends and Y/n never able to see her smile, hear her laugh, or even see her. I stopped and hugged my pillow. It's too much pain for me but I have to live with it to survive.