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Glasses, tidy uniform, holding books 24/7...
That was the kind of girl I was and bcz of my appearance people judged me as a worm-book girl...
Unfortunately for me that was just my appearance but from the inside I was like any teenage girl
I love taking care of my looks,
I love cooking
and most importantly
I want to fall in love

BUT

with a person who loves me back like I do...

WHY !!!

Cuz every boy I love can't accept me bcz of my looks...
Is the wrong with me
or
that those days people care about looks more ?!!

~❤️~

A faithful day came
A day I didn't expect to come
A day in a timeline of my life once I wished it didn't come...

I went through the beauty of love
I went through the hardship of love
I went through the tears and pain of a broken heart

BUT

I loved him and I will forever love him this is for sure the thing that didn't change since that day

The day I made an eye contact with a boy for the first time
The day that our eyes met and brought for us what they call it
Spring ...

~🍃~

I gathered the courage to confess to a classmate ...
My friend came with me for support she went and stood at the back of a tree while I confess...
I didn't think that it will turn like this surprisingly he agreed in going out I was so happy that I didn't think it was the calm night before the storm...
We agreed on having a date
a special one
A Night Date...

I was so happy & excited with a little bit of nervousness...
Well I would be lying if I said a little bit...
I was nervous
A LOT...
Cuz it was my first date in my whole life...
I chose my cloth carefully and read a lot of magazines
The time of my first date came I went flying to our meeting place...

I waited

&

Waited

And waited

believing that he will come until a boy approached me saying what I didn't want to hear

" Sorry but I don't like girls like u and I thought that u r confessing instead of the other girl that was standing by the tree "
I

s all he said...

And all what I respond was
" It's okay, I'm used to it...Thanks for telling me :) "

I waited like an hour for him...
Is that wrong?!!

Should I waited less then go away ?!!

Is this how u get rejected those days by sending a friend instead of u ?!!

cuz it's been a long time since I ever decided to love again...
I walked away making a strong face but the moment I turned my head tears started to fall...
I tried to walk straight but tears made my vision hazy

But for sure
I was going to forget the Idea of love...

I will never fall in love...

~ BUT ~

A few seconds later
I learned that love is feels u can't control cuz the moment ur eyes met u can't hold ur heart
U enter the unstable emotion that is caused by LOVE