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peep was laid against the wall wrapped up in his blanket. he was watching scooby doo and laughing like a child. it made me happy to hear his laugh.

"baby, can i ask you something?" peep said looking at me like a cutie.

"yes, gus?" i asked back, i was kinda nervous.

"why dont you want me falling for you?" he asked and honestly i wasnt what he deserved. i'd break him. i'd hurt him. i dont wanna hurt him he deserves much better.

"cause, gus, i don't deserve you. i'd end up hurting you and i really dont want that." he smiled.

"i been hurt before, babygirl, i can take it." he stuck his hand out of the blanket and grabbed mine. i grabbed his peep pillow laying it on my stomach while i laid on his shoulder.

"you should let me dye your hair." he said wrapping me up in his blanket, i shrugged. i honestly love my hair this color.

"you can dye a strand of it, i like my hair this color." he smiled, his grills shinning. my phone started buzzing.

𝒅𝒂𝒅 𝒊𝒔 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈...
𝑎𝑐𝑐𝑒𝑝𝑡| 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞

i answered the phone while peep frowned.

"venus, you havent been home in days." i sighed.

"i know." i said, peep was watching his show.

"where are you now? i'll come get you." i shook my head.

"i'm with my friend, i'll come home tomorrow." i said peep smiled.

"fine, ve, but we're gonna talk." i sighed.

"alright, dad." i hung up the phone laying on peep's shoulder.

"why daddy so worried about you when i'm yo daddy?" peep said as i laughed.

"he's not even my real dad, gus." he turned to me.

"where's your real dad?" he asked, i stared at the tv.

"my parents are dead, this is my third foster family." he frowned.

"awl, baby, what happened?" he asked, i didnt mind him being curious.

"they were murdered. and my sister got blamed for it." he played with my hair.

"i'm so sorry, babygirl, we're all a little fucked up." i nodded, most of my depression came from the death of my parents. then being passed along from family to family.

"janice that i was talking about is my foster mom and shes a fucking bitch, brian's nicer than my other parents and he really tries." he kissed my cheek. he yawned.

"baby, sleep with me," he said turning off the tv and wrapping me in his arms. i didnt have a choice to cuddle at this point. he took his shirt off pulling me on top of him. his arms were wrapped around my waist. "i'm really fucking tired."

"me too." i said, tracing his daddy tattoo with my finger. he pulled the blankets over us while i laid my head on his chest.

"hey, gus," he hummed in response. "youre a good person." i said awkwardly, i wasnt good at compliments but i still tried.

"well, venus, you bring it out of me." i smiled to myself, i kissed his cheek.

"i'm glad i met you." i said rambling.

"you too, ve." he said, and i felt comfortable with him. i closed my eyes falling asleep on the coolest person ever. i woke up earlier so i could get to school. i got to my house taking a shower and changing for school. i made sure to grab my other bag to make the deals today.

when i got to school before the period started i met the people in the bathroom selling stuff before i went to class. usually around the time peep would text me, but he hasnt. which to me
is weird. maybe hes just sleeping.

during the day i caught myself thinking of peep. he hasnt talked to me all day. soon i found myself in the parking lot alone. that kinda hurt but i guess thats what i deserve. i saw jake come up to me.

"can we talk? just you and me." i shrugged. we started walking to his car.

"what do you want?" i asked.

"i really miss you, venus. ive been a jerk ever sin-" i cut him off.

"ever since you left me? ever since you made me fall for you then leave me for another girl." he sighed.

"i wanna make it up to you but i dont know how." i scoffed shaking my head.

"drop dead, asshole." i replied walking to my house. it was always allison, ryan, and jake to bully me because jake left me. then he got others to join. while i made it to my house, i unlocked the door and went in.

brian was sitting on my bed with my bag full of xanax in it. aw fuck. he turned to me with a sad look, i sighed.

"why, venus." he asked, i shook my head.

"they help me." i replied, he laid them on the bed.

"i can find you help, venus. not t-this.. this drug." he got up and came closer to me.

"it doesnt work, dad. ive done therapy, ive done medication, ive even tried talking to someone i trusted but it doesnt work." he sighed and hugged me.

"you cant kill yourself, ve." yet i want to.

"i can handle them." i pulled away from his hug and laid on my bed.

"youre gonna kill yourself, ve. i dont wanna see that happen." i shrugged.

"it'll happen one day." he took the bag making me jump up.

"im not gonna let it." he started to walk away.

"brian, give me the bag." he shook his head, he quickly shut my door as i chased after him, he locked himself in the bathroom flushing them, i punched the door so hard it left a dent. i was so mad. nobody cared then so why care now.

"i cant believe you." i said walking back to my room and locking the door. my phone started ringing, without thinking i answered.

"hello?" i asked.

"get ready im coming to get you." it was jax, i groaned.

"fine, gimme thirty minutes." he hung up, i stripped all my clothing off then found my fishnets and heels, i put on a spaghetti strapped crop top and my black pencil shirt, doing my makeup before running downstairs.

"where you going, venus." brian asked, i clomped my heels and walked out to jax's car.

i had this crazy dream last night w peep in it & i didnt wanna wake up he hugged me yall :( lilpeep4ever🐣💔