Hey,
I'm Charity. I'm 13 and I'm gonna die.
11 February
Once again I hear my grandmother coughing. Maybe it's about time she got of those smokes. But she never does it's like air she needs to breathe it otherwise she can't live. I really wish she didn't and she knows that and we always fight about it. It's like she doesn't see that smoking will kill her just like it killed her dad. But hey I've tried and I've tried but nothing seems to be working. Lately she hasn't been the only one coughing I've had this cough for a while but I haven't been able to shake it. But today is the day that blood actual blood came out I'm unsure whether or not I should tell someone. After considering it I decide to take myself to the doctor then if nothings wrong there's no need to tell anyone but unfortunately they have no spear appointments.
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As I'm walking out the door on my way to hospital I quickly write a letter to mum telling her I'm going to the mall be back in a few hours. As I walk through the doors of a hospital. A rush of fear come over me what if something's is wrong....
Charity Matthew I'm so sorry those words play in my mind like a broken record it can't be this whole time I was worried about Nan dying I never thought that I would get lung cancer. How is it possible. But then it hit me I HAVE LUNG CANCER. They told me that they're not sure whether I'm gonna live. Suddenly the weight of the world it's in me, tears start to flood my eyes I'm 13 I'm not ready to go yet. Please don't make me go yet. I ring my far away best friend telling her to meet me at a MacDonalds half way as she lives far away but first I have to tell my parents I'm about to be the reason their whole world comes crashing down how am I going to tell them.
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I rush through the door.
"Mum. Dad. Nan. Sit down I have something to tell you. I ummm.
I have (deep breath) I have cancer. Lung cancer. Silence just silence. Then it happens Mum is bursting out tears. She hugs me so tight I think my lungs were going to die right then and there.
"The doctor think it will be best if I start cemo straight away after school and they told me that if it doesn't work or have an effect after 3 months we should start to prepare for the worst."
And if happens again. My nan however goes outside for a cigarette. IS SHE SERIOUS!!!
"Mum I need to go meet Jessy in 30 mins sooo" without asking she grabs the keys and we're off.
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I look her dead in the eye.
"Jessy I have cancer"
"Hahahaha nice one you almost got me" she said in hope that it was a lie.
"No. No" she said through sobs. Her dad comes in with the bags.
"You knew!" She said with anger.
"Honey i figured you would want to stay with charity well until"
"Until she gets better" she interrupted with that she grabbed her stuff and was already in her car.
We are driving home and I don't know what to say.
"How Brian" I wen my so red.
"Do we have to talk about that"
"Yes actually"
"Ok well I've had a crush on him for so long and I catch him staring at me through class but the thing is lately he's been looking at me when something happens to check I'm happy and smiling and then smiles it's the cutest thing....
And I actually had a full conversation with him and we tease each other none stop and god the feelings aren't going away" I said in a rush.
"Anyway enough about me what about you" she just stayed quiet.....
"Anyway Brooklyn I'm hungry" (Brooklyn is my mum) I will get it out of her but now isn't the time.
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She walks into my room and dropped her back and jumped onto my bed.
"God I've missed this place"
I chuckled......
Mum had planned for her to transfer and I can't wait until tomorrow....
