Somewhere In My Lost Memories||Hiatus||

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JUNGKOOK's P.O.V.

Namjoon hyung asked us to leave Amy alone for a while. She remained silent throughout the car ride to home and also did not come downstairs for dinner. She must be sad. She might be feeling guilty for the plight of Mr.Choi and she does play a role according to me.

Today the atmosphere was unusually serious at the dinner table. Jiminie hyung told us what Amy told him and we all felt this feeling of guilt in our hearts since we were now back to our senses and realized that it maybe wasn't her fault.

RM hyung finally revealed the reason why she must be kept happy. We didn't want her to sue us later since we hid her in our dorm and maybe that's why Bang PDnim was doing all this. Whoa, such a man, he can go to any extent for his company and this increased his respect in my heart by several folds. But this also increased the pressure on me as I was her roommate and my behavior towards her was crucial, especially in these times. Now when I think, my behavior wasn't the politest, I hoped she doesn't sue ME. 

Hyung wanted me to talk to her when I go to my room after dinner and console her when all know that I was the worst at consoling! When even Jimin hyung, who is the best at this, failed then what would I be able to do? In addition, my shyness towards girls remains the same, I managed to speak a few words to her the previous day when she was in good mood but what will happen today? Why? Why me god?

I gathered myself and entered the room which was engulfed in darkness but the moonlight coming through the window made a few outlines of objects visible. Amidst them, I saw the outline of a girl sitting on her bed with her arms wrapped around her legs and forehead resting on her knees. The room was filled with an eerie silence giving me an uncomfortable feeling.

"Is it me who has gone blind or the room is dark?" I finally broke the silence with a silly joke but received no response. As soon as I entered, I switched on the lights and then placed her shopping bags on her bed beside her. Finally, I received a response and she rose her head up to the rustling sound of the bags, I too was looking at her face but we both broke the eye contact right away. Slowly, her head lowered to rest on her knees in the same position.

I took a deep breath and moved to sit on my bed, facing her. Nervousness took over me and my throat dried up. I quickly grabbed the glass of water kept on my bedside drawer and chugged it down. "You can do this Jeon Jungkook! You are not intimidated by such petty things as talking to a female." I thought while trying to encourage myself, "They say you must face your fears head on to get over them. What is the worst possible outcome here? Maybe she will end up getting even sadder but it's not that bad!"

"Amy," I began and she rose her head to look straight at me. I felt my courage crumble under her gaze. I began to stutter and blurted out the first thing that came to my mind. "You know what? Your eyes look prettier with tears adorning your eyelashes."

She did not reply. Her head fell back to its previous position and she began to sob. I wanted to hit my head on the wall for spewing such nonsense. What I said must seem like I was telling her to keep crying as it gives me pleasure. This was the worst case scenario, right?

"Amy, see I am sorry if this terrible joke of mine offended you ok?" I bent forward and tilted my head in an attempt to get a glimpse of her face which was hidden by her hair and knees. "I just wanted to make you feel better. I failed miserably. But can you give me another chance?" I pleaded but she did not answer.

"When we heard the news about Choi manager-nim we were dumbfounded. As if we lost our ability to think properly." I started again. " The first thing which came to our minds was 'who did this?' and the sorrow we were feeling changed to anger by the time we reached the hospital. this anger needed to be taken out. we needed someone to blame, we too are humans after all. Sadly, all of us chose to blame you without thinking twice.