I'm lying in bed wishing my bedsheets to eat me alive.
Pakiramdam ko mababaliw na ko any moment kapag iniisip ko na papasok ako bukas after that incident.
I barely know the guy! Siya pa talaga nakakita ng cp ko? I would have accept it kung mga kaibigan niya but no! I'll accept the embrassment from an unknown people but I just met the guy! Yoohoo?
It was a picture of me in a photoshoot. Wearing a full clothed sleeves. Thick and warm. With only short shorts. I was just standing there, holding my right elbow like its hurting. With my messy hair and playful eyes as I looked at the camera.
The messy hair came when i slept while their fixing me. Gulo na pala buhok ko nun dahil sa magulo kong posisyon. Yuyuko, aangat ang ulo para igilid lang at ipatong sa balikat. The stylists didn't stop me! They said it was more appealing kung magulo raw buhok. But my agenda was to be cute.
I'm acting like a korean cutie but the picture turned out to be seductive. I was to be told to make it as a wallpaper. Since that's the reason why I modelled once there. Its not as if its permanent, but the contract said it should be for 5months.
Why screenlock? Its more easy since I don't want to present it to the public. Ayoko yung shot but one shot lang kasi yun. I'm not allowed with many shots, the deal with my sister. Pinakiusapan ko pa na screenlock nalang since people I know always use my phone for something i don't know.
Means makikita parin nila. Well better na yung kakilala ko lang kaysa sa hindi ko kilala.
1month nalang matatapos na, may nakakita pa! That guy! I was good at keeping it hidden cause I'm not into techs but like I said i texted my sister.
Head down while walking to the corridors. I can see their feet so it's fine to weirdly walk like this.
"MINSA DANDLEY!" Sigaw ni Lyn ng makalapit ako sa classroom.
Huminga ako ng malalim at inangat ang tingin para makita kung saan nanggaling ang boses. But instead of Lyn, the guy, Serdoza is now standing infront me.
Napatitig ako sakanya. I really don't know him but with the way he looks at me is with all recognition. Agad kaong umiwas ng matandaan ko ang nangyari kahapon.
Di parin siya umaalis sa daan. Tumingala ako ngunit nakita ko lamang na nakatitig parin siya.
He wasn't smiling. In fact, my presence is like irritating for him. Ano nanaman ba?
"W-Why?" I asked. Mukhang nagulat ulit siya sa boses ko at kumunot ang noo.
"Get out of the way" sagot nito na agad kong sinunod.
Ha? Harang ako sa daan? I looked at where i'm standing. Nasa gilid kaya ko.
Dinadaanan niya ko without saying a word. Napakurap nalang ako.
At least he didn't remember the incident.
"Mins! I hid myself waiting for you to search for me! Pero nadatnan kitang nakikipagtitigan kay Wilmer?" Nagtatampong maktol niya. She assured to whisper the tagalog part.
Wilmer who? That Serdoza is named Wilmer? Oh, okay.
"We weren't staring to each other." Simple kong sagot bago nilagpasan siya at pumasok sa classroom.
"Right" laziness is what I heard from her as she sat at my side. Sitting in Serdoza's seat.
"Ang aga ko rito kasi yun ang usapan natin, but you came last minute before the ring." Naiinis na sabi nito ng pabulong. Tumayo na siya, as a sign of walk out, sakto ay pagkabell.kaya di na ko nag-abalang suyuin ito.
Nakasalubong ni Wilmer si Lyn at umupo sa upuan nito. And again acted like his life was as boring as himself.
All I asked was a life with no perfection cause it won't be challenging. But seeing how hard life is, many of us people wish to be perfect. Without knowing the consequence.
So in my daily life, I find something thrilling. Trying to fight the hard life! But this guy? He just seem not to care at all.
Days passed, Wilmer and I didn't talk again, unless needed. He never talked about the picture and I never make him remember it. Well as if he cares. Ngayon lang kami nagkakilala, so I had to chill. Maybe he'll forget.
Lyn wasn't here with me in the library, cause for her this place is virus? And since I also see myself as a virus, i'll be glad to stay here always.
Today, i'm planning to read facts about galaxy. Well, random thoughts and this is what I thought. You get my point with this. And even if i'm not preggy, i crave for something, and that's always about books. Crave for genres.
I got three to five books and find a place to read. Dahan dahan kong nilapag ang mga libro sa gilid at sinimulan na magbukas ng isa.
Books aren't soothing to eyes of some. But i like to read, as long as i like what i'm reading. I can say that I'm not stupid yet i'm also not smart enough. So i like studying more than doing something else. Books contain knowledge so I respect books.
I was about to get anoother book when I saw someone standing at my side. Kunot noo kong tiningala ang taong to, and to my suprise it's Wilmer.
"why?" This time di na ko nautal. Good, Mins. Improving with your stupid stunts. Nagtitigan nanaman kami. Master ko na ata yung pag eye contact dahil sakanya. We always do this.
Hindi man kami nag-uusap ay mata naman ang komunikasyon namin. But as I observed, laging siyang inis sa akin, while lagi akong lutang.
Nagulat nanaman siya sa bigla kong kausap sakanya. Hindi siya nagsalita at umupo sa harap ko.
"The library gave us many seats to sit on. Why are you sharing with me?" Nagtataka kong tanong habang nakatingin parin sakanya.
Isn't it true? Maraming seats dito and i won't be seating with him since di mga kami close. Ang awkward nun! Baka wala akong maintindihan sa babasahin ko.
Hindi niya nanaman ako pinansin. Tinungkod ko yung siko ko sa lamesa at tamad na tumingin ulit sa libro. Ang awkward huhu.
"Wilmer is Wilmer when he study." Patuya na sabi ni Lyn saakin nung kinwento ko sakanya tungkol sa library. We didn't talk. Halos maa titiganna namin yung isa't-isa kaysa sa libro. But i won't say that to her.
She wasn't suprise na magkasama kami kasi raw parehas kaming library lover. But Wilmer is smarter, I can say that. Tahimik lang siya but he has all the knowledge he can to answer you.
"The guy's cold. Di siya mahilig sa babae. He'd rather burn you to death with his daring eyes than talk to you." Dagdag pa nito. She isn't svared with people who would hear her, huh?
"Why are you telling me this, Lyn?" Nagtaka kong sabi habang nakatitig parin sa librong hindi ko na maintindihan. Lyn you better stop.
"I smell fish and I give clues to fishes so they wouldn't be confused." Dun ay natawa na siya at ibinalik ang atensyon sa phone niya.
Fish?
