"Its 3:00 in the morning what are you doing?" I was having a great dream about unicorns and hot dogs. "Wake up I have a surprise for you since its your birthday." mom said in the happiest voice. I just starred at her. The first real sentence in weeks. " Its not my birthday. Are you okay? Are you mentally sick?" I was worried about her because all of a sudden she start talking like a normal person and the first thing we talk about is my "birthday" I love my mom but she weird but I can't say anything because I'm the weirdest person in the house but still. " What is my surprise?" when I asked her that question she got all serious. She came and sat on my bed with my help because her stomach is huge now. I would say stuff like she needs to lay of the Twinkies. "You know how you never met your father?" I was surprised. I wanted to know were she was going with it. "Well your going to meet your father tomorrow. Or is it today? Is it considered today since it 3:30 in the morning?" "I think so. What time are we going today?" I had many more questions but going to what. "We are going around noon. And you know that we are going to have to get a divorce." "I really don't care I don't have any special connection with him."
" Good, I guess. Okay go back to sleep."She wisphered while exiting my room. "I can't now." After that I somehow feel asleep but I didn't have the same dream about unicorns and hot dogs. I had a dream about Alex. The dream took place at my 3rd grade play. She was there holding flowers and then the music just stop and she left she got up and left and I never seen her again. That was weird but dreams aren't real. I think . When I woke up it was already 11:30 in the morning. Mom was already dressed and ready to go. "Why didn't you wake me up?" "You looked so peaceful." I had to rush to put clothes on and brush my hair and teeth. I put my hair in a messy bun and wore a Orange shirt, stripped pants and orange flats. I didn't think I look like a prisoner but mom said I look like one. By the time we got there, there was many men sitting at tables. Many of them sitting alone, some with friends and family. I didn't know where to go I had to go and follow her. I did not know who my father was or what he look like. When I sat down with my mom, we sat at the last table to the left. He have dark brown eyes, brown hair, and he look like is at least 6'. " Hi Amy, you look very wonderful." he said like he was trying to flirt. " Thank you Louis. I'm going to sign in so you can get to know Iris." At first he starred at me then start to look around. "Hi Iris, so where's Alex?" Mom haven't told dad what happen. "Um.....She past away a 2 months ago. She killed herself because she was being bullied. The girl who bullied her died two weeks after." After I told him that he started crying. I wouldn't blame him. " sorry for crying but I never thought that she would end her life like that. Well I have good news for you and your mom, I could get an early release if I continue with the good behavior." I really like breaking bad news to people but he was my dad I couldn't. Oh well. "Well I have bad news for you. Mom is pregnant, Boy twins, the baby daddy left her." By that point he was livid. Mom was walking back to the table and sat down. "So what I miss?" she said in a happy voice. " Well I found out you cheated on me, got pregnant, the worst part is my oldest daughter killed herself and you never told me." Mom starred at me and I knew what she was thinking. " You little snitch why did you tell this crazy man. You know he killed his boss and every last co-worker he worked with." "When were you gonna told me?" he said as the stood up drawing attention to us. "I was gonna tell you today. Yes I got pregnant, Yes the baby daddy left me and yes Alex killed herself. I didn't expect Iris to tell you this." Mom gave me two dollars and told me to get a snack but what I want to know is how do you get a snack with two dollars in a prison. Its not like there's a vending machine in here. I know they just want to "talk". When I got back they worked everything out. "So if continue with the behavior, how long would you be until you get back?" I could tell she was crying before I came back. " Am I in trouble?" I said as if i afraid I was. " Know your not but there is somethings we need to talk about. Like the divorce. Ummm.. We aren't going too . We worked things out. And bout the baby we can't keep one we have to put one up for adoption " I couldn't believe my ears. I started to cry. " Was it his idea." my voice started shaking. "Actually, umm.....It was. He said we wouldn't be able to. Alex I'm sorry." " I'm not Alex. All you ever talk about is Alex this, Alex that. And I guess you don't care about me. Iris. The only daughter you have now. Alex is dead, okay deal with it I did and every one else did. And second, what does he know about raising a child. The only child he raised was Alex but he only raised her for two years he didn't watch me grow up. He didn't watch me take my first steps. And he didn't watch me on my first day of school. Sometimes I wish I had a different dad. One who can watch me take my first steps and see me on my first day of school." that was Probly the loudest I ever yelled. I was really mad too, after that I ran out of the prison and ran straight to Nathan's house. 20 minutes after I got there I have been getting phone calls from every member off my family. "Nathan, do you think I could stay the night here? Just until tomorrow. I just don't want to see my mom right now." "Sure, later I can tell my mom you left to go home and that you brought your bike here. I can give you a shirt to sleep in and you can wear your prison clothes again tomorrow until you get home." he said. He's really sweet. The next day l walk really slow back home. By the time l got back no one was there so I'm guessing they went looking for me. I went straight to my room and took a shower. I wore blue jean shorts and a red, white and blue shirt. With blue jordans. Two hours later my mom walked in the house and she was in tears. She walk straight into my room. "Don't you know how to knock?" I could tell she didn't realized I was there until I spoke. "Where the hell have you been?" I didn't speak. "Answer me!" she started yelling louder and louder. " At a friends house. Why do you care cause you obviously care about Alex more than anyone else in the world." l didn't regret anything l said in the prison and l don't now. " Can l ask you a question?" I really didn't want to talk to her. She probly going to talk bout Alex. "Fine." Watch what happen. "When Alex passed away you really changed." See what I said every sentence she said have something to do with Alex. I rather be with Alex than be here on earth. You know what I think I will be with Alex. " How you feel about your dad?" Really? I think she know what i'm bout to say. " I hate him." I actually want to know why she asked me that. " Well, you better get used to him because he will be moving in tomorrow." What does she mean " moving in tomorrow?" I don't want to live with him. He makes me want to stab him with a spork. "I'm not living here if he is." I'm serious about leaving I could just live with Nathan until I graduate then get a job. " Then where are you going to go?" I know what I'm bout to say is going to make her mad. "Don't worry bout it." I was right. She got up and left. I gotten my phone and texted nathan. After l told him what happen, He said that l say that l was being abused at home and ran away and you don't want to call the police or want her to know where she is. After I texted him, I packed all my clothes and shoes. And left. By the time l got to Nathan's house l had to make myself cry so it will look more realistic. Nathan's mom was already outside waiting for me. "You poor thing I'm so sorry about what happen with your mom and sister. I will let you stay here until you graduate. I have rules but lets get inside first." once we got inside we all sat down on the couch. " Iris, you will have to do chores and I will pay you every two weeks. I will take care of you like a daughter. A daughter that is dating my son. You will sleep in the guest room. l want you to feel comfortable in your new home. l promise that I will not tell your mom where you are staying. I can't believe that I am really leaving my family. But l will be happier here. " That you so much. I will not disappoint you." l made myself cry again. "Nathan, help Iris with her stuff please. I will start dinner. hope you like homemade pizza." When we got to my new room it was right next to Nathan's. When we were done l gave him a long kiss on the lips then took a shower before dinner. When l was done we all sat down and for the first time in a long time l actually felt like l was in a family. l can tell l will be here for a long time.
