Surrogate to the Warners

Chapter 08

Katherine's pov

  
I somehow managed to sleep last night, I did everything that would bring sleep to my feet, blinked my eyes a hundred times, did some exercise, rubbed vicks behind my earlobe but my brain was focusing on everything and anything but sleeping. My ice cream craving somehow managed to come out of the undivided attention as half of it actually more than half of it was stole by none other than Silas.

I did my morning chores and went to the kitchen carefully, didn't really wanted to bumped into Silas, at least not the first in the morning.
I was hungry so I decided to settle on an egg toast, I really wanted the breakfast to be quick.

I was whisking the eggs when I felt the presence of Silas behind me, he was maintaining a decent distance, but I could smell his freshly bathed masculine scent, the subtle smell of his cologne working it's way on my subconscious.
"Good morning" he whispered audible enough for me.

"What are you making?" He asked

I was planning on not talking to Silas at all, this was the only way I could keep myself out from indulging ourselves in verbal fights and his mean comments.

I could feel his intense gaze on me, I turned off the flame and  moved aside to take plates but he still remained unmoved.
He rubbed his temples and sighed loudly, I could feel him coming closer to me.
He slid his his hand around to my waist and in one swift move he turned me around, I could feel the counter behind me and and the heat that was radiating from my body because of the little to no distance between us.

"What the fuck is your problem Silas?" I tried my best to push him but that only made him pull me closer.

"Shhh"
He placed his finger on my lip in an attempt to hush me.

"I'm sorry" he murmured and sighed
"I just lost it and I absolutely lost the control on my tongue but I take the responsibility of whatever I said. I shouldn't have said those things damn I fucking hate myself for saying those things and I would literally do anything to take them back. I've been feeling terrible since yesterday and believe me when I say this I'm genuinely sorry for saying those things Katherine." He said caressing my cheek all the while.

"You don't mean any of it, and if given a chance you'd be back with another set of hurtful words to be served down on my plate." A wave of intense anger came down on me and his words did nothing but provoked it more.
Right now His closeness wasn't making me feel anything if anything I was disgusted to even stand this close to him.

"Katherine" he closed his eyes for a brief moment and when he opened them, I could see nothing but remorse in them.

I hated myself for this, I always tried to see beyond the picture in Silas' case, even right now I should have fled away from him but I couldn't I just couldn't.

"I hate seeing you suffer like this, especially because of me, I try I always I try to stay as away from you as possible but I always end up craving to be near to you. I don't know if you're going to forgive me for all the things I've said or not, I don't even expect you to forgive me but just so you know I mean every word of it, I really am sorry love."

Love. That word from his mouth terrified me to my core. I was supposed to be hating him right now but he was like a nectar to my bee, attracting me more and more towards him.

"Why are doing this to me, why me?" I cried
I couldn't stop the tears forming in my eyes.
"You always do this, one moment you're an asshole and the next.....Well forget it,I'm not your pawn game, don't make it difficult for me. I like things when they are simple so don't make them more complicated, please I beg of you." I couldn't take it anymore.

The tears were blurring my vision and I totally blamed my pregnancy hormones for letting my guard down in front of him.
This surely wasn't my usual self, I would never cry in front of anyone, not my mom dad or even Nicole for that matter.

I was waiting for him to say something but the words never came out of his mouth instead he pulled me more closer to him and wrapped his arms around me.
He laid my head on his chest and started caressing my back.

As much as I hated admitting it, but his hug brought my mind at peace, everything around us blurred it was as if there was only Silas and me and our heartbeats rhythmically beating against our chests.

Not few seconds into being in a hug, my stomach growled and honestly I was thankful for it, it was getting a little awkward there for me.

"Guess my baby's hungry" Silas chucked while he pushed himself off me. He really is a bi polar.

"Why don't you go and sit, I'll bring you the breakfast." He said
I nodded and went to sit on the sofa and switched on the tv, I needed something to deal with the awkwardness.
I settled on Weeds, my absolute favourite show, it just never gets old and I can watch it anytime.

Silas sat beside me on the couch and while having breakfast we didn't utter a single word.

"Umm when is Alexandra returning?" I asked Silas in an attempt to ease things off.

"Don't know, honestly I don't even care. Half the times you won't find her home, you might have noticed. Now you might think how bad of a husband I am but just so you know, there was a time when I truly cared and loved." He said and I absolutely had no idea what he was saying, loved and cared ? why was he referring things in past tense?

I contemplated on whether to ask him or not, but my nerves got the best of me and before I knew the words were out from my mouth.

"What happened? What changed that?" I asked looking at him intently. Curiosity would surely get the cat killed.
He closed his eyes for a moment and I bet he was contemplating too.

"That's a story of another time, by the way I hope you're not getting sick anymore, you don't seem bad of course other than your puffy eyes, you seem like you're actually doing fine." He quickly changed the subject.

"Yes I do feel a little better. I mean I don't really feel queasy these days." It was true though

"I've always wanted to ask you, how does it feel to be pregnant, I know it's a weird question but it always fascinated me how a woman's body works." He asked, he sat facing me and his elbow back on the couch, his hand supporting his head.

"Honestly it feels good, other than the sickness and all, it feels good. It amazes me to know that there's something growing inside of me, a life which will bring happiness and only happiness. I already feel so attached and protective of this child even though it's not mine, one thing I know is in the end it will all be worth it, all the pains, the sickness won't matter, but baby and only the baby." I said caressing and looking at my belly all the while though it wasn't even a bit protruded.

When I looked up Silas' eyes were fixed on me and I quite could not point on exactly what he was thinking.
He probably would've not liked it, Silly me who the fuck told you to become all emo Katherine.

"I'm sorry you know I would never claim this child. It's just the pregnancy hormones making me emotional these days and nothing else, you don't to be worried really. Once my work is done I'll be gone, away from this city and you would never see me so chill." I chuckled

He still didn't respond and then we he went back to watching the tv and I went to my room.

Once I came in the room, it all came down on me like a fall and the bubble that was created by us out there bursted.
He's married for god sake Katherine, you can't be doing such things with him. Feeling about him is one thing but displaying such feelings is insane and stupid.

I don't know what's his deal, he can't be saying those things to me especially when he's married and I'm the goddamn surrogate. But still there was this inner voice in me yelling out that whatever is happening or has happened isn't just me.
It absolutely takes two hand to clap.

When is Silas going to stop confusing the hell out of Katherine? Godddddssss

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