Today, Tomorrow,Forever

The Guy With The Leather Jacket

Running as fast as I can I run through the hallways of my school. I stop at the the end of the hall and slowly walk into the science lab. No one is there. I turn around as fast as I can. I sprint around the corner and take a right. As I run down the long hallway I glance into every classroom.

They are all empty.

Suddenly, the hallway dims.

I turn around and see that one by one the lights are going out. Quickly I run around the next corner and then soon enter the cafeteria. I see the exit sign flashing in red. When I make it to the door I shove into it expecting it to open..but it doesn't budge.

It's locked.

Suddenly the already dim lights of the cafeteria turn off. I hear the slam of the cafeteria doors being shut. I hear panting and footsteps. The person seems to be coming closer to me. I see the glint of light in front of me. Probably a knife.

I scream.

Bolting into a sitting position I look around my room. Glancing at my alarm clock I see that it is only 3:27am. I run my hand across my forehead, wiping off the sweat that had formed on my face when I was sleeping. I lay back down and try to fall asleep, but I see the glint of the knife from my nightmare. I shudder,and get out of bed. Obviously I won't be able to go back to sleep. I slowly walk into my bathroom, strip off my clothes, and walk into the shower. While the hot water sprays onto my back I think of how long it has been since I have slept fully through the night. About 2 months ago.

The night before I was raped.

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When I walk into the small kitchen I look over to see that I never set the coffee pot so it never made my coffee. Sighing loudly-and a little over dramatically-I walk over to the coffee maker and start a pot. Having taken almost an hour in the shower, and about twenty minutes to pick out a outfit..which consists of yoga pants and an old shirt that had at least three holes in it.. It was now about 4:40am.

I yawn while I walk towards the fridge looking for something to eat. When I open the fridge I see that it is pretty much empty other than a carton of eggs .. Which I am too lazy to make ... and some orange juice. Obviously I have to go shopping....

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As I am walking around the fruit section I randomly pick out some apples and oranges. Putting the bag of fruit into the cart I walk around the store blindly thinking of what I could make myself for lunch and dinner. The only problem is that I am a really bad cook and there is no one at the apartment who can make me food...because I live alone. When I used to live with my parents my mom would always make all of the food that I ate, and she never really taught me how to cook. The only reason I know how to make good cake and eggs is because in school, in family consumer science, they taught you how. After being thrown out of the house I have been either eating take out food, eggs, or fruit..but I really miss the big meals my mother used to make. Food is the only thing that I really miss from home. My mom and dad were always the best parents you could wish for..mom did my laundry, usually cleaned my room, made my food, and always listened to what I had to say and never tried to bud into my life. While my dad always made sure my car had an oil change and would help me out on any of my math homework that I didn't get. (He is an accountant.) When I was raped by my ex boyfriend and I found out that I was pregnant I went straight to my parents thinking they would help me get through it..but instead they both freaked out and told me that it was my fault that I used to date a guy who was "crazy".

After checking out, I see that it is raining outside. Since it was sunny when I came into the store I hadn't thought of bringing a rain coat. Standing by the automatic doors I look out into the rain willing it to stop.