mark x jack x reader

the beginning

it was noon. i just finished up my college work from home, closing my laptop and climbing into bed. i sighed while pulling out my phone, loading up youtube while searching my pant pocket for a sucker. while unwrapping the sweet, i noticed that mark had uploaded a new video. i grinned and sighed of happiness as i started it up. it took a while, as it was a previous livestream from when i was out, but i watched it nonetheless.

i smiled, hugging up my pillow as i imagined it was mark. i couldn't help myself; he was so handsome, how could i not love him to death? my stomach began to ache, along with my leg as i soon fell asleep, ignoring the slight pains. my dream was wild; full of alcohol, tiny box tim, even septic sam along with their creators.

i'd began to make out with mark, palming jack through his pants. jack returned the favor, causing me to melt. "oh dear god.." i moaned between the kisses. suddenly, i woke up. damnit. i noticed i had a hard on. nothing like having a sexual dream about your most favorite and dearly loved people. my stomach still hurt. i felt pain all over my body.

i couldn't move. i looked around the room, seeing figures in the corners. they approached, but i still couldn't move. this has happened before. i tried moving with every fiber of my soul and body and mind, but the fright i felt deep inside caused me to stiffen out. in reality, i were awake, my eyes wide open.

although the figures touched my face, and everywhere else, i hated it. i felt violated. so vulnerable and exposed. my vision began to blur, hot tears running down my cheeks. i began to use a method, it usually calming me down during certain panic or anxiety attacks. it was one of those grounding techniques.

after i used them, i finally tried to throw myself upwards, and i succeeded. i sighed with a soft smiled, "it's over with, for now." i wanted to never sleep, hence my new coffee addiction since the sleep paralysis had began months ago. i thought it was life's way of telling me, you don't deserve to sleep.

suddenly, my phone vibrated, a notification popping up. it was from mark. he uploaded a new video. "hey guys.. this is a bit urgent, but.. i'm taking a break from youtube. it won't be long, i swear it, but there's been a lot on my mind recently. and, i can't confess now. it's already too late, but here goes; i'm gay, alright? you've all made the assumptions, and you were all correct. sean and i are now dating, close to engagement now. so, i guess that's that?"

i felt tears of joy fill my eyes, commenting on the video. "now, i know, a lot of you don't take kindly to that, but i'm not doing it for the views, i promise. but, i just need a break. um," he sighed, tears rolling. "i just.. d-don't know what to do anymore, okay? i guess that's why i need a break. from all of this stress and, i don't want to feel that way, or address it, because i'm afraid it'll seem like it your guy's' fault ; which it's not! it's all mine. sorry, guys, i just have to go now. bye."

he waved at the camera before it going to a black screen. memffmgm i love him so much! ahh i hope he feels better. i thought, holding my pillow close. while cuddling it, i huffed and laid my head on it, my alarm going off. i didn't even realize what time it was, as it was 8:30 AM. i jumped up and grinned, heading towards my makeup table across the room.

i removed the previous polish on my nails, repainting them purple. i smiled at the result. "hey alexa, play This Is; Troye Sivan on shuffle, please." as Troye began to play, i relaxed in my chair and began to do my makeup. after i was finished, DKLA played first.

my phone rang, "i'm gayer than Troye Sivan, let's face it." my ringtone was the best. i answered the call, "hey! how's it going?" it was wade. he laughed, "it's been pretty swell! haha," "hey, wanna go to the movies? i heard a new horror movie was coming out today." "sure! oh my gosh, i'll get ready! i'll call you back when i am." "ha, alright! bye." "bye!"

that poor man was so gullible. i smiled at the thought, putting my phone in my back pocket and getting up. i gripped the table, everything twisting and turning. it was all swirly for a few moments, everything trying to blacken out. i calmed down, walking towards my closet to find a pair of black jeans, and a button up shirt. i also searched for a bow tie, as if i was going on a date.

after i was cleaned up, i waited for wade to call back. he must've been busy, trying to find clean clothes. he was still in his clothes from the other day. he must've been upset recently.

i smiled and fixed myself some popcorn, slowly finishing the bag as wade called back. "hey, i'll meet you at the cinema, alright?" "mhm." i hummed between bites. i could hear him smile.

we hung up and i stretched, checking my watch. i'm sure this was the beginning of something great.

a/n
iM SURE THIS IS SHIT BUT OH WELL LMFAO
-joey🌈