Dear Love,
It's been a couple of days since we ended 'us'. And I admit I still cry every night thinking about you. But every night I cry lesser and lesser. I don't know if it's because I feel numb or I'm slowly moving on... I hope it's the latter because I want this pain to end soon. Love, thank you for all the unforgettable memories we shared. They say you only meet your one true love once and you are lucky enough if your true love is your last love. My "love journey" hasn't ended yet but I am sure that you are my true love. I will come across so many guys but you will always have a place in my heart. I just know that after so many years, I won't be sad anymore. I can look at my reflection on the mirror and realize how truly happy I am because I met my true love. I experienced what it's like to be with that person. It's an experience that I will never, ever forget. Love, thank you for always making me happy. To the point that you forgot how to make yourself happy and found out that making me happy is what makes you happy. You were so selfless. It's always me before you. You never gave up on me. Whenever we fight, you are mostly the one saying sorry even though it's my fault just because you don't want us fighting. Wooohhh, im starting to feel a lump in my throat. Haha. Love, thank you for always being there at my worst. Guiding me when I'm lost. Remember those times that my mom and I fought and you'll always force me to say sorry and even though I'm shy to apologize (I'm that kind of person lol), you'll make me feel guilty which made me apologize to her and we become okay. It's always because of you. My world is better when you are in it. But I can't keep you forever right? Because we are at our different stages in life. And I understand. But I'm really sorry love. Because I find it unacceptable. Why are we destined to meet yet not destined to end up with each other? It's just unfair. Now I'm all alone. You were there, helping me to stand by myself and because of your presence I was able to do so. Now that you are gone, how am I supposed to stand strong? I hope you taught me, love. You were the person who makes me the happiest. Yet you also make me the saddest. But still, I'm so thankful I met you. I feel like I'm mature enough to enter the new stages of my life. To go to the next chapter of my story. Thank you. Thank you for always being there for me. I will always take our memories through the journey of my life. I'm happy you were a part of it. This time love, I won't look back anymore. Because looking back is stopping me from moving forward. Love, as much as I want to be with you, I can't always get what I want. I can't spend my time crying about it. Instead, I will work hard and pray that one day, someday, destiny will bring me back to you. I love you so much. No one can ever, ever describe how much I loved you. How much I love you. And how much I will love you. Love, thank you for watching movies with me, thank you for staying up with me all night when I can't sleep or when I'm scared, thank you for our endless calls, endless talks, thank you for always restricting me with silly stuff 🙄 and lastly, thank you for existing. You are my other half, my sunshine, my everything. It'll never change. Our love is so, so great that I will never be able to forget. But I will move on. Because I know you wouldn't want me sad. I used to think it's silly crying for a guy. Or crying because of break ups. But the thing is that i don't cry. My tears just falls 😂 wow that's funny but it's true. I would just feel my heart shatter and my tears would start falling without me knowing. But someday love, I will be happy. I promise you that. Promises are not meant to be broken right? ☺️ I told you before we broke up, "I drank too much of my happy pill that I got overdosed." I got overdosed because of the pain I felt, it was killing me. But I didn't know that stopping myself from having my happy pill killed me more. But one day, I won't even need to take pills. And I know that day will come. Now love, I hope we will both have a great journey with our lives. We used to be together through the journey, but now we are going separately. It will get better. You will always, always be a part of me, my true love.
