Late Night Thoughts

I Thought.

My heart aches for you.

The late night Sunday message that had popped up on my screen

A smile a flutter that had been felt in my chest

Electric, one because no one's ever said that to me

You came at me with such ways that left my mind in awe

Such soft reminisce of you and to this day I still think of you.

I think of what we could've been.

Though that fairytale like feeling had been known as a lie.

I should've known better

But I didn't I couldn't or maybe I always knew

The smile you gave your dimples that never seem to leave my mind whenever I close my eyes and think of you.

Your voice that hid the sadness that I had felt those months

I thought I could be wanted maybe even loved

Delusional.

I played myself into believing I could have something even someone by my side.

This is why I can never have nice things.

But you fucked me over you messed with my head my feelings

Every feeling I had burned and dripped with false promises and compliments

I bet to you I was never beautiful in the first place.

I was probably just an easy win.

Maybe you saw the lack and crave for human contact.

But then again maybe it was my fault.

For even thinking that you'd ever want to be mine.

Guess there always just my thoughts.