Change; An Edwin Honoret Fanfiction

22 [UNEDITED]

"Edwin" I whined like a baby as he ate the last slice of pizza, "that's just mean"

He opens his mouth and I immediately gag, "want some baby girl" is what I hear him say playfully through the disgusting ball of chewed up food in his mouth. Muffled, but I still hear it none the less.

"Edwin that's fucking nasty" I slap his shoulder hard before running away, hearing his loud footsteps behind me. As he chases me through our house I feel.. peaceful again, Edwin brings this sort of child out of me that I never got to be. I had to grow up and become mature all too fast, but he helps me see what it's like to have some sort of youth.

He picks me up hella quick and puts me over his shoulder, I begin to punch his back playfully and scream his name in an attempt to get him to put me down but he continues to run to our room, as soon as he reaches it he finally loosens his grip before lying me down on our bed. He walks over to the door and closes it before he walks back over to and and rests his elbows either side of me so he's over the top of me. As our laughter dies down we look one another in the eyes intensely and suddenly only one thing is on my mind. After about two seconds he smirks and begins to slowly lean in-

"Open the fucking door!" I hear a loud knocking on my bedroom door accompanied with Venus' voice. I sit up and rub my stinging eyes before realising where I am.

The fuck? Did I just dream about Edwin? I'm going crazy.

"Abigail I said open the-"

"Piss off" I attempt to yell, but it comes out as a sort of whisper after my broken voice cracks, she seems to hear me though as her knocking stops and I hear a loud sigh.

"It's been 3 days since you've eaten, can I at least make you a bowl of Mac and cheese and give it to you?"

"Whatever, fuck off" I scoff, surprise somewhat laced in my words.

Three whole days.

That means it's been three days since Hanna told Edwin that I had feelings for him. I'm still in shock really, I mean Hanna had my complete and utter trust. She was my best friend for fucks sake, and she had always been there for me, but holy shit did she fuck up and I don't know if she can come back from it.

She told Edwin one of my biggest secrets, something I wasn't ready to tell him, something that made me so fucking vulnerable and she just spit it out as if it were nothing.

Drunk or not, I would never.

That day I ran into my room and to my surprise nobody followed me, I don't know what I was expecting really, or wanting, but if Edwin really liked me he wouldn't have just let me go like that. I think that hurt more then anything, I clearly meant less to him then he did to me.

After I had finished crying hysterically my initial sadness and embarrassment had turned into anger, and as I opened my door and stormed down the 17 stairs I had every intention to beat the shit out of Hanna.

That was of course, until my eyes met Edwins.

He had clearly been crying, his eyes were puffy and his face red and in that moment I felt my heart break for the second time that day. He was in the middle of a conversation with Hanna, which further fuelled my anger.

Now I think about it, it was stupid for me to feel jealous in that moment.

The second she noticed Edwins gaze had moved she turned to face me and began to ball her eyes out.

"I- I'm so-" she began to choke on her own words so I had decided to cut her off.

"You're not allowed to cry, not now, and I don't want your fucking apology" I spit in a low voice before turning and beginning to walk up the stairs, "and for the record, I don't hate you. I should, god knows I should, but I don't"